I've been checking in but no one had posted after my depressing rants over the past week so I thought I'd stop boring everyone!! hehehe
How am I??? Hmmm....slowly going INSANE!!! This is the WORST 2ww I've ever had. Ever. It's not even the usual stressing about whether or not it's a bfp or a bfn (kinda used to the bfn's by now iykwim??) it's the "did the clomid work or not"??? I usually start spotting around now (prob due to my low prog levels) and i find myself trekking to the toilet all day to check!! Was the pits today cause I was at work editing some massive deeds and agreements for a pretty big transaction (am a legal sec) and my mind was not on the job - I was visiting the loo every 1/2 hour!! I keep trying to prepare myself for the worst but as you know, you still come crashing down in a big heap. It's just torture. So that's me.
As for you girls - I swear sometimes reading your posts is like jumping into my own head . I totally hear you on the scheduled bding "issue". This is one of the issues my DH and I had to discuss. Let's face it, it's just god awful and the pressure is overwhelming. It's only been 4 months for us, I don't know how you guys have lasted this long. What ever happened to a good old fashioned shag for the fun of it??? Ahhhh, those were the days before broken hearts and shattered dreams....
I also hear you Michelle on the existing not living thing - this was what my dh was trying to tell me but I don't know how to stop?? I was driving to the station this morning thinking about the only thing I ever think about these days and I wondered what did I used to occupy my thoughts with before this??
I am keeping my fingers crossed and sending out wishes to the universe that we'll get at least one bfp this month girls, hopefully for you Michelle as it's your last go on Clomid so a bit more pressure for you than the rest of us (if that's possible?? hehe). Here's hoping that old addage about 'things happening in 3s' is true (but can we have 4s please universe??) and Deb was the start of something wonderful!!
In the meantime, I guess we keep doing what we're doing. We can't give up girls!
PS Michelle - you poor thing re the investment property. They say buying property is the second most stressful experience in life after the death of a loved one and trust me, after working as a mortgage paralegal and conveyancing secretary for quite a few years I'd have to agree!!
***Sorry Chelle, I just re-read your post and realised that AF has already turned up this month. So sorry it's always the very worst time of the month when your mood just plumets. I agree, I'm sure your mood will improve once she p's off, always seems to be the case for me and thank god for that, it's so hard being that sad.
Last edited by Willow; September 15th, 2006 at 08:23 PM.
Hello petals!!
. I totally hear you on the scheduled bding "issue". This is one of the issues my DH and I had to discuss. Let's face it, it's just god awful and the pressure is overwhelming. It's only been 4 months for us, I don't know how you guys have lasted this long. What ever happened to a good old fashioned shag for the fun of it??? Ahhhh, those were the days before broken hearts and shattered dreams....
it's always the very worst time of the month when your mood just plumets. I agree, I'm sure your mood will improve once she p's off, always seems to be the case for me and thank god for that, it's so hard being that sad.
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