Hi Hun

glad to hear it all went well with the op you will have to let me no what the results say i bet you cant wait to start ttc ah. well i came on i am so dissapointed i really thought that this month was the month so looks like i will be taking a trip to the gp to have a blood test so they can check for a hormone inbalance i just no that there is something wrong and i wont stop untill the find something i have started a diet today as well which i am hoping i will be succesful at as i think my weight dont help matters i have being trying a yr now and just cant stop thinking whats wrong with me i just hope it happens soon.

as to the anixiety i totally understand it doesnt sound silly at all to me i am always thinking about if my DH or DS die how would i carry on cos i think i wouldnt be able to without them and am always thinking something bad will happen i think you are so brave staying in the house by yourself i really couldnt do that i get a friend to stay with me when my DH goes out for a drink in the evening its like i need a babysitter but it is hard cos these thoughts are so silly and it is highly unlikely that anything will happen but when your in that frame of mind you really believe that somehting bad will happen the other night i was in bed and i started sweating so bad cos i was scared in my head sounds awful i visulised someone breaking in a stabbing me over and over and leaving me to die in pain hope that doesnt make me sound like a freak but i couldnt get the thought out of my head so i told my DH and he was like stop being silly he really doesnt understand how scared i feel at times i just hope that i stop thinking like this one day.

Munchy xxx