Ferrals so sorry you didn't get your BFP I know how you feel I did a test and got a BFN as well so I guess we both feel the same ( prity peed off ) I know what you mean about not having a problem before and I think maybe we try too hard sometimes ! I for one have decided not to let it run my life so much as for the last 6 mnths all I have thought about is getting another BFP well I have decided not to go to the FS as If god wants me to have another then it will happen and I have begun to get in my head the fact that it will not happen again for me ! I have 9 and I have been blessed and I hope all you ladies are blessed real soon,
I am older than you and it took me a full 12mnts the last time I got pg so my timeline doesn't give me much hope but you are younger than me ! I have had 2 in my 40s so don't give up try and relax a bit more and just do your test and try not to stress too much ( that is what I will do anyways ) I will still check in now and then but I do feel that I am pushing my limits so good luck to everyone I will keep looking but won't post too much,
I'm so sorry for everyone's sad sad news. I was coming on tonight to see how everyone testing was going... for everyone.
Louie - I'm so sorry you have lost this fourth one...I just can't imagine the pain of that. I know a few GFs who have used Clexane from their BFP onwards. It is an anti-coagulant and seems to help prevent some forms of early miscarriage. Your GP can prescribe it if you aren't see a FS but maybe it would be good to get in to see one if you can to see if there is anything else to explore. There is a simple test for killer cells and the Clexane is said to work with this and I've heard also of small doses of steroids in IVF just before a transfer to help knock these out. It may not be any of these things but worth exploring more.
Dory, Ferrals, Crafty - so sorry you are all having such a hard time of it.
I'm fixing dinner so can't do anymore personals just now but hi to everyone and hugs to you all.
TTCaLC - good luck with the court case - that's such a huge thing to deal with in itself. I hope it goes your way.
Louie: Ow, that breaks my heart so I can only imagine what it's doing for you. I really hope you get lots and lots of information and that something can be done so you can get your forever bub. Don't give up hope.
Dory, Ferrals, Crafty: Boooo for BFN! BOOOOOO! It sucks.
Snugglybean: Thanks for your words, they made me smile, although I'm sorry you were crying on a bus!
TTCALC: Good luck with everything!
Ric: Hope hubby feels better soon! Crack that whip girl!
Alice: Hows things?
AFM: Very tired, had a residential thing at Uni this week so I'm away from DH, first time in 4 yrs! Bit sad. Haven't tested again yet, dont really wanna see another BFN, I'm just gonna try and wait it out. Stupid waiting. Love for everyone!
Thanks for your kind words and support... I need them right now. It's time like these when you find out who your true friends are. Two lovely ladies from work brought around some flowers to help cheer me up and my mum sent flowers.... I just burst into tears knowing that people loved me that much and wanted to help. My hubby keeps saying he doesnt know what to do for me and I just say being there is all I want. We've been through this before but this time is the hardest. We're off to the Gyno tomorrow who will want to send me for an US but I don't want to. I know I should but I'm not strong enough too see an empty screen. I dont even want a blood test done..... I know what the result will be.
Dory... I will have a look for the book you mentioned. It may help answer some questions we have or open our eyes a bit more and not just leave it up to the professionals. I saw the 60 minutes program but I didnt take much notice.... will have to research into it a bit more.
My mum has given me a website my aunty is using for menopausal (spelling??) related problems, to look at. It's called Shen Therapies and located in Jamboree Heights in Brisbane. Has anyone else heard of them or know anyone who has used their services?
Sunbeam.... I honestly don't know what tests I have had, I've just trusted my Drs and gone with the flow. Hopefully tomorrow we'll have some answers and if not I'll try to go back to another FS i saw earlier this year. It's hard living where I do as we don't have easy access to Drs.... you use whoever is in the town. We did travel up to Wollongong to see a FS and will travel to Sydney if we have to. I do hope your blood tests find the answers you are looking for so you can fulfill your dreams.
Ferals... You've probably been told before but don't give up. The little one you are waiting for will come, just time will tell... you never know this cycle might be the one.
Loopielouie, darling so sorry you are going through this again XX Cyber huggs to you XX
MissK, don't feel like getting the Xray did you or your baby any harm, the girls are right, it would take 2weeks of continuouse Xrays for it to affact anything XX Don't beat yourself up about that, I too think of reasons why I lost my little one, but the highest percentage of the time, there is no reason, it is just natures decision, as harsh as she can be. For multiple losses I would definately start asking questions though.
Ferrals, darling, I am dissapointed for you, I was so sure that this would be your time, but now, not yet. You don't have dud eggs, you are not a dud either.
The Ovulation Gizmo sounds like a sure way of knowing when to time things right, but please understand, It could take a couple of tries still. Just like my IVF game, the stats get higher and higher, we just have to be patient!!!
I know you have been looking at more options, to hurry things up, and I too was hoping that you didn't have to go any further than look, but darling don't give up now, you have come way too far, and I wont allow it!!!
Oh, one last thing, I do hope your boys are ok XXX I had both of my ingrown tonails operated on after so many attempts to get them fixed, I have nasty scars on both my big toes!! I hope your boys heal well X
And I hope the broken wrist is pain free now, and mending away. You are a buisy girl!!!
The lurking, upcomming AF is the nasty one, the one where you know you are going to get her, but she still devistates you because you still think you have a faulty test, or hold onto a chance that it was too early to show.
That firts moment of show, wow, if I could bottle that moment up for everyone here, if I could bottle up the first feeling for everyone, dig a gigantic hole and burry all of the bottles to be never found, or unearthed again, I would XX
That my friends, would be the coolest. !X
Dory, I hope you start to feel more yourself soon, I loved reading your post earlier, I love the things you write. I would love to have the ability to write the way you do XX Belly rub for you by the way
Ric, honey, gosh you poor thing you are getting the lot hey!!XX I hope you both feel better soon, nothing worse than trying to BD with a snotty nosed unshaven clammy other half!! Not even just to do the job!! Take care babe XX
KitF, love to you to honey XX Good luck with the study this year, and good idea to wait it out I think. Take it easy XX
TTCALC, I was thinking of you the other night when i was watching the olympics, I love seeing all of the snow, wondering what it feels like! I know it feels like a pain in the proverbial end for you, but wow!! Mygod the kids have been off school a lot, wish it could have snowed when I was at school!! Wouldn't have had to wag and get detention then!
Sunbeam, godluck with the testing honey, I too hope that something simple and fixable is found XXX Love to you strong one XXX
Mildez, I too hope you dont need to go down the IVF road again, it's an exciting one when it happens, but I am an emotional zombie at the moment, just waiting for a FET!!
I hope that luck is on your side, and a miracle comes to you soon XX And lurk away!! I do sometimes too!!
Snugglybean Sweetheart, yeah i thaught your SVN channel was on the fuzzy side!! How are you going? Goodluck this month honey, you are sure up for some good news soon, I can feel it in my bones!X
Glad that you have been out enjoying your life as it is, nice to be at peace with yourself and having a great time with friends X
OMG plucking my eyebrows makes me cry!! I think my eyebrow hair is joined to my nose from the inside!!
SammyP, Jahzara, how are you lovely ladies going?X
Alice, I am sooo love'n your Avy!! XX Has your on/off AF settled yet?
Sarahrach did you find out anything more about the cyst on your ovary? Did you end up ovulating or not, you have had me wondering over it for a couple days X Hope things are well X
Alicat I hope that endometrium is getting juicy and thick!! How are you babe?
em, darling, I hope you are feeling ok today, 1week today, I hope you are looking after eachother XXX Welcome to this part of the BB Forums, you are very welcome here, and sure to make some great supportive friends to assist you to pull through XX Nice to meet you X
Iona-Macca, nice to meet you too X So sorry your visit here is a sad one, we will all get you through this hard time, plenty of strong shoulders to lean on X
I M/c naturally too, and I undersatnd waiting it out is a tough thing to do XX
Honey, I hope your levels drop quickly so you can get your cycle back XX Take care, things can be still very raw, so just go easy XX
Crafty, I know you are having a low month too, nothing has gone exactly to plan since your darling boys went back home, and I wish I could come over and fix things for you.
Please don't give up hope, don't let these challenges beat you down. We are sent many things in our lives to test us, and for you, yes, you have been landed with a few 'beuties' over the last couple weeks to give you a real Aussie Flogging, but hey, why take off the gloves without getting in few good punches hey??
Cmo'n English lassie, you got a better fight'n spirit in you than this!! Now I want to see you in at least a couple weeks with your BDing nickers on!!
I am sorry I know I have missed people, but my post has been so long already!! Hope to catch up with all of you next time XXX Love to you all and take care XXXXX
AFM, still in my weird mood of not being motivated to do anything, yet as soon as I get home from work, I mop the floor when it is clean, I polished all of my woodwork yesterday, then thisavo?? The craziest, I cleaned the inside and out of my fridge spotless, then decided to take everything out of my horrendouse tupperware cupboard, and clean that too, then headed to the bathroom and cleaned al those cupboards out! DH just looked at me weird as he stood there sucking on a beer being entertained by the mad moman he married!X
So that's me so far, lazy, unmotivated, yet cleaning like a mad woman untill I fall into an exhausted heap. I know I don't make sence, DH tells me all the time!
Still no AF.
Nesting much, murraycod? That FET must be coming up soon! It's March!
DH and I decided to open a bottle of red tonight to celebrate the beginning of March! We hardly ever drink when it's just us at home, but I had the day off today, it walloped down rain but I still had the most beautiful wonderful day out and about, then came home and made a mushroom and bean lasagne.
Kit - I've cried everywhere! Back in Sept last year was probably the pinnacle though, when I hid under my desk and really cried my eyes out. Someone eventually found me and took me home. Life is a lot less stressful now though - I left that job for a new one that gives me beautiful long weekends like this one!
Actually, on that - I finally told work the truth about my story. Lots of my colleagues (we are a small and tight team) have been asking when we're planning a family. So far I have palmed them off and said "oh, maybe soon." But I had a really good chat with one of the girls, found out she tried for 7 years before having her little girl (who I adore) and I told her the truth. She cried. I know I made the right choice by telling her.
Oh goodness, there is a lot of sadness in this thread from the past few days. I am so sorry to hear about your loss Loopy.
And the girls are right MissK - its not your fault. You've got to try and forgive yourself. I took baby snorkeling in some pretty cold water and I was blaming myself for that ending in MC. Of course it was not the reason, but I just wanted something tangible to hang the blame on.
Hi Em - its good that you've found this thread and I hope that you'll be on the road to TTC really really soon (with a nice sticky one following shortly thereafter!!!)
AFM: well after several O false starts, looks like my body has finally done it. Got three higher temps and a solid red line on Fertility Friend.
MurrayCod - I've been told the cyst is something that will disappear so I'm not worried so much now, but its so weird that I got all the O symptoms and the O pain without the temp rise. Weird.
Crafty-I understand what your saying thats the way i feel with our bad gene i said to who ever runs things up stairs if you will bless us with another baby please let it be a healthy one or don't let me fall pregnant at all but part of me just wants to know if the year since we lost abbi has effected my fertility and i would be happy just to see those 2 lines whatever the outcome does that sound selfish
I hope you will stick around you are still popping out an egg every month so when your gismo arrives you can time it perfectly and hope that its a good strong egg.
Kitfaerie-I wouldnt test either i have decided i will not test early again next month i will just wait until AF is late YEH RIGHT!! who am i kidding.
Murrycod-I know you are right i just wanted to be pregnant before Abbi's Bday on the 20th to help me feel better when i am suppose to be celebrating my nieces 18th maybe it's not ment to be i worked out it has been 16 months since i fell pregnant and almost a year since we lost her and in that time there has been 5 months that we have actually tried to get pregnant in between waiting and the IVF and all the months we diddnt try because we were scared of another sick baby it feels like such a waste of months and now we tried in jan and feb and nothing i just can't imagine going the rest of my life and not having my gorgeous hubby's baby how is it i can have kids to a deads##t ex husband who is a terrible father sooooooo not fair.
Jakes toe's are doing great he has had them done 3 times now poor thing i hope this was the last time and dean my eldest had 1 plate and 6 screws inserted in his hand i spent 2 days in hospital sooooo boreing but he is fine and will survive seeing it was self inflicked (punching a bus stop sign) no sympathy from me but thanks for asking
I hope AF doesnt turn up and you have a harriet in there growing and snow bub harvey will have to wait a little bit to meet his mum dad and big sis (would be nice) but if not i hope AF shows on time and then you can get underway with defrosting harvey and putting him in the oven to start cooking.
Ric-sorry you and DH are having a bad run with illness but if worst comes to worst stick some tissues up DH nose throw some cough medicine and panadole down his gob and tell him to roll over you will do all the work all he has to do is not cough or sneeze snot on you he he the visual of that whole senario is not real good but hey us women will do anything for a baby.
Sunbeam-i hope you can get some answers but to be honest when we were waiting for the autopsy results and all the chromosone and genectic tests i told myself i wanted there to be a reason but what i found out was not what i expected and it was devastating two healthy fertile people can have kids to other people but not to each other i hope your answers are fixable and something simple.
Anywhooo-AFM AF is on her way so back to the old drawing board we have our naturopath appt tomorrow (hope they dont cancel this one) and this month i should be fertile around abbi's Bday and testing on my Bday so lets hope thats an omen and this is my month.
So much sadness at the moment for you all..Hugs to everyone.I have put off posting the last few days as i have read each persons journey this month.I didnt want to be inconsiderate when so many of you lovely ladies are having such a tough run.Its just plain unfair.I am crossing everything that can be crossed and praying my heart out that this month is a better month for you all.Something just has to go right with all the wrongs going on!!!!!!!!!
Alot to catch up on so i wont go into persies, just know i am thinking of each and evryone of you and sending lots of hugs and positive energy to each of you.
AFM- well ultrasound didnt show alot as i wouldnt let them internally. so have to wait till end of this month for another one.According to the ultrasound by what they could see, i was only 4 weeks.Weird i say considering i had tested positive on HPT 2 weeks earlier..the mind boggles but my dr has been brilliant.She sent me for another blood test on friday and came back yesterday with result of 376. so we are rising..see what happens i guess....very scary and way too scared to even join a group for due date...
anyway enough of me, thinking of each of you xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Thanks Murraycod and Ferrals for the pep talk I know I should feel more positive and I really would love a BFP but I have to get my head around the idea that it may not happen for me and I am comming to terms with it more and more as the days go by.
I think if I just step back a bit and wait till my gizzmo arrives and do like you say ferrals on the days it tells me then I have given it my best shot and its a gamble as to whether its a good egg or not. I will keep trying I promise but I will also try not to let it rule my life. You are special girls and I thank you for your friendship and wish you all the luck in the world for MARCH it has to be a good month !
To all you new ladies SORRY you had to join us in here but there are some lovely people in here all waiting patiently for anothrer BFP and all with sad stories to tell, I hope you can get some comfort and know you are not alone we are all here for you ! I you feel at peace soon and get a BFP not too far down the line.
Loopie louie sorry it was not a good week for you and I would definately be asking more questions now I have mc quite a few times but have had healthy pregnancies in between so I think you should ask more as to what they think is going on.
Sunbeam,snuggly,ttclc,ric,mattewsmum, sending happy vibes your way thanks for thinking of me !
AFM just trying to chill out a bit and get on with my life and not stress too much over this TTC lark I will receive my gizmo later this week and that should help with guessing the right day for bdancing ( then him indoors can do the deed on the correct day ) and stop messing around getting toooo tired ! will pop in every day to see how your all doing and be waiting for some GOOD NEWS ! we sure need some.
One last thought !
"Anyone can tell you it won't hurt tomorrow but I'm here to listen while it hurts today."
Hey Ladies i feel like i havent been here for days but it was just yesterday..lol
Im doing good.. Been cleaning the house and the closets out..
I added a New ticker but i want to make sure im doing this right?
It says..Please enter the first day of your last menstrual period?
So would that be the DAY STARTED? iwas wondering cause my Fertility and OD is like right around the corner..
Loppie im sooooooo Sorry i dont even know what to say YOU are a Strong women and yes your right you do have lots of Q.. maybe you need to take it easy at work when you are prego that is alot of stuff your doing .. hang in there sweetie i know thats easy for me to say since i have lost only one angel baby but believe me i know how your feeling Just know your in my thoughts...
Murray im doing good.. and the snow has finally stopped! The kiddos been back in school since monday since Feb 5th.. so there enjoying that.
&&& Still NO af? have u tested? hope you get in a good mood and get motivated hugs
Ferrals.. oh sweetie wouldnt that be a Nice birthday present test on your birthday and be BFP.. that would be awesome my fingers are crossed for you ..
Hubba... Sticky vibes sent your way!!
Snugglebean .. im so proud of you to tell the truth im sure you feel much better about things now.. Best of luck
Kitfarie and Alice Thanks soooo Much!!! best of luck to you ladies
afternoon everyone ,Hugs to all the ladies who are new to this thread,i'm sorry for your losses...ttcalovechild-good luck in court...sunbeam-when are you expecting the bt results...mildez-hope your natural bfp is not far away,does dh change his mind easily...dory-thanks for sharing your beautiful children in your signature with us...craftymummy-good luck with new gizmo...hubbabubba-be watching for next scan update...ferrals-sorry about the bfn,hope tomorrow goes well...loopylouie-sorry your going through this heartache again,how did the dr's go?..ric-fingers crossed for you,hope those nasty bugs leave your house soon...missk-i know it is hard to not blame ourselves about our loss,i'm still working through the guilt feelings what are so common after loss,but i do not believe you lost your baby because of dental x-rays.Try to be kind to yourself...thinking of you all and wishing you all the best what ever part of ttc your up to
We went to the Dr this afternoon and we both feel a bit better. Hubby's confusion over how cycles work and how everything is inter-related is at ease. The Dr seems to think I wont need an US or a D&C (I didnt want to anyway) cause my levels weren't high enough. But all we have to do is wait for 2 natural cycles and then try again. But I am to continue taking Metformin and once we see him again in 2 months we'll begin 150mg Clomid. Just a waiting game.... but hopefully will get a nice package in the end.
I'm actually feeling better in myself today. Had a few tears at work but it's getting easier. We have (well.... I have) decided to declutter my life... get rid of stuff no longer needed around the house, do things to the house, stay off this computer more, change the way we eat and exercise.... basically a life change. I want to be more physically and mentally ready, and hubby too.
TTCaLoveChild.... I would think it's the day you period started... but I'm not good with that sort of stuff!
The gizmo thing that everyone is talking about sounds hopeful... those who have it will have to keep us posted on how it goes.
Hubba_Bubba.... everything is crossed here ... good luck!!!
Off to cook dinner..... hope everyone is keeping well....
Just a quickie - finishing up at work so had a looong day today packing, moving, filing etc.Boring.
MurryCod - LOL about you doing all that cleaning! I did my fridge a few weeks back - hate to say it but it was a good few years since I'd done it that thoroughly! Yesterday I spent sorting out all the stuff in drawers around the house - feels good to have it done but I was a bit weary getting to the office today to do the same thing there! For me I think it was a bit of wanting things to go back to normal but with your little blastie waiting to thaw I think the girls are right and are you are nesting! I so hope this one works for you. Thanks I love my avy too!
Louise - good to read you are feeling better in yourself today about everything and positive about the cycle to come.
MatthewsMum - how's the IVF preparation coming along? You doing OK on the pill? I hate it - always look forward to that bit ending and the cycle finally starting. Two more months to go for me.
Ferrals - that's so not fair that you and your DH haven't had your own baby together yet. My DH would make a beautiful dad too - I sometimes think I look forward to that as much as being a mum, if not more. I hope those bad genes don't get in the way and you can celebrate your birthday with a big fat BFP.
SnugglyBean - that was a brave thing to do and lovely that there is someone you work with who can share your journey with who understands.
Hubba - sounds good - hope the next two weeks goes well and you can see more at your next test. I would feel the same about not joining a due date group yet - hang here with us til your ready - we'll keep you company!
KitFaerie - I love that you spell Faerie the right way (just wanted to say that!). Hope the wait flies past - I reckon the few days before are the hardest. Hoping for a BFP for you
Sunbeam - how'd the blood tests go? Any news?
Dory - belly rubs for you. I hope you find your mojo soon.
Ric - are you both feeling better?
Kirsten - are you lurking? How's it going? Any news?
MissK, Em, Iona-Macca - how are you all holding up? Hope you are taking good care of yourselves.
Sorry to miss anyone - hope all is well with you.
AFM, still taking my 'happy - NOT! - pills' (poor DH). AF has come and gone so now I'm trying to concentrate on getting a bit more fit and healthy and looking forward to May when we can get going with IVF again. Still waiting for the results of the testing from the mc and wondering whether it was nature taking it's course or just my aging eggs. Boo for aging eggs. I want my young ones back again.
just want to give everyone this is a busy thread and hard to catch up on anyone, but just wanted to say it makes me sad to see so many people in this thread that are all hurting. so to you all.
Just trying to get by at the moment and trying to stay positive but it's so hard.
loopylouie-glad things went well at dr's,did he suggest any more testing?how do you find the metformin?i've been on it for the past year,gives me some tummy problems but apparently dr said i'll need to keep taking right through 1st trimester of any future pregnancies...alice-hope you don't have to wait to much longer for test results,know what you mean about aging eggs,fs has warned me not to be to disappointed if he only can collect 1 egg at epu,due to my age & being perimenopause,it's a pain this getting older business,i've been taking the pill(seems strange saying that on here)waiting now to start using the nose spray
I will still check in now and then but I do feel that I am pushing my limits so good luck to everyone I will keep looking but won't post too much,
for everyone.
Take care babe XX
Wouldn't have had to wag and get detention then!
you feel at peace soon and get a BFP not too far down the line.
... good luck!!!
this is a busy thread and hard to catch up on anyone, but just wanted to say it makes me sad to see so many people in this thread that are all hurting. so 
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