megsmum--Hey, I just noticed your avi has a baby belly now!! So cute--congrats!
babymiracles-- to my fishy friend! Hope you have a great, stress-free, spot-free b-day!!!
Joselyn--We haven't met yet, but welcome! I'm so very sorry for your loss! I so know what you mean about the flashbacks.... some days feel like I'm reliving the moment.... I always compared it to a slide show that seemed to be stuck on 'replay' going on inside my head, continually playing over and over again. I honestly have to say I'm not sure when that feeling completely went away, there's still days where it'll hit me even now, almost 1 year later.... but it does get better and less frequent.
kazaraz--I'm sorry your body has you so confused! I everything gets worked out soon, and you get the answers you're looking for!
Abbey--Sending you lots of vibes!!
mollycat--Hey, I feel like we've been strangers lately! Miss you and always thinking of you!
Mel - Hope the cramps and back pain are easing. Love the ticker, BTW. Now I can keep track too.
Abbey B - Sending loads of vibes your way. Fingers crossed that this is your month.
boble - Hope AF is taking it easy on you.
Julia - Don't feel mean at all if you find you can't be happy for pg friends. I just explain to people that I am happy for them, but I'm just more sad for me. And can completely understand that you don't want to endure well-meaning but insensitive comments. Feel free to talk about any of your feelings here. We get it.
chappas - Goodluck for your upcoming scan.
jen - Good on you for overriding FF to get your coverline. I peeked at your chart and, novice that I am (I will start temping if AF arrives next week), it makes sense to me. I'm praying you caught that egg. And I hope DS gets better soon.
Eliza - I'm so sorry for your loss and that you are having a hard time. If you need more time before returning to work, take it. Try to follow jen's advice and to allow yourself to feel whatever you feel. It took me a long time to do that and I don't think I could've begun to heal if I'd continued to ignore my feelings (mind you this healing is still ongoing). This time is all about you so you do whatever you need to. Big to you.
megsmum - So glad you had a lovely b'day.
babymiracles - I'm praying all is okay too. There is no shame in taking some extra reassurance.
erybery - Glad everything is going well. Yay for strong heartbeat. Thanks for keeping us posted.
mrzbaby - Sorry to hear about the retained products. I hope it gets sorted soon. Big for you and DH.
ubba - I'm so sorry for your loss I had a missed m/c last July. It was my first pregnancy, so I didn't know what to expect. Looking back, I now know my symptoms had started to subside but it wasn't until they had disappeared completely that I got checked out. Goodluck with your TTC journey. I hope it is short.
Joselyn - Thanks for sharing your story. I hope each day gets a little bit easier for you. I still have flashbacks too. I'll never forget the image of my little 'blob' motionless and with no heartbeat.
kazaraz - I don't really have any advice to offer. Just wanted to give you a big hug and that our bodies should betray us so. Sorry if you have already told us this, but have you had an ultrasound to confirm that the miscarriage was complete? I do hope you get some answers soon.
Hello to everyone else
AFM - Started to get another tension headache tonight so I think AF is on the way. At least it will give me a chance to get the hang of 'this whole charting thing'. This is cycle #6 since the m/c, so it's probably about time I started to learn more about my body.
Waiting, waiting, waiting, for all those BFP's - February has been a lot quieter then January, maybe March will be a busy month (with lots of Chrissie pressies).
to all the newbies. You've found a great place to come, the girls in here will give so much support, especially during the first few months when everything is so raw. I spent a lot of time in here during 2008, but have slightly moved on. I'm still praying for a miracle, but not actively TTC (no more charting, no more fertility meds). I know without this group, my days would have been so much harder. It's wonderful to have someone to talk with who knows just how you are feeling.
Joselyn as you know I lost my precious daughter Nikita 8 days after she was born at 24w+1day in June 08. What you are feeling is perfectly normal and is part of the grieving process. I still get my heckles up when I see a preggy woman smoking (sorry to those who smoke) or when I hear a little bitty bub crying and its crys are being ignored. I work in tourism in an info centre so I understand how you feel when you see these things - particularly for the first time. The firsts are the hardest and in that respect you will find it gets easier to deal with the more you go on. With the flash backs - boy I don't think they ever stop. I still get them at the most inappropriate times. When I feel so lousy that I just want to crawl into a hole and disappear I get outside and do something, or rearrange a room or spend 25min on the treadmill (mentioned only coz you work in a gym) I find that by doing something invigorating it takes the mind off it or at the very least gets those endorphines happening in a good way. Even at 2 in the morning. I still break down into a crying fit but these lessen over time.
After this last early m/c (my second m/c) i have found that I am reliving what happened with Niki a whole lot more and I swear that by getting active even when I really don't want to, is the best medicine - particularly because I have not shifted any of my pregnancy weight gain and I hate the sight of my body now with the horrible caesarean scar.
For everyone else, there is no right or wrong with greiving take the time you need your firsts following an loss are always the hardest the darkness does lift, the heaviness and the ache in your heart may remain but you will find yourself dealing with this and moving around these feelings, you all have that strength inside you
Thanks so much Jen, Megsmum and Hannah for the birthday wishes. Day job is finished for week (work that M to W) so having a relaxing day and mum is going to come and have lunch with me. Then have to work for a couple of hours tonight before going out for birthday dinner. No more spotting since monday and booked in for quick scan tomorrow. Feeling rather sick this week - especially in the evenings!! Also feeling a bit anxious - might need to have a short break from belly belly cos sometimes reading posts where things have gone wrong are adding to my stress IYKWIM. No doubt I won't be able to keep away for long though
Much love and best wishes to everyone visiting this site. I your stay here is short and that there are lots more BFPs very soon
Kaz - My goodness, I have no advice why things are not 'as they should be'. I agree, thinking that a bt would be the more accurate, however it is all so strange. I hope you get a bfp, then that would settle it!
Abbey - Big hugs. It is hard to stay positive when all the signs are pointing in the wrong direction, however I think this is also our way of protecting ourselves so if it isn't the news we want, then it will make it easier. I guess we also have to remember that all pgs are different... I hope you get your bfp.
Hannah - I hope af skips town for you, but you can see a silver lining to her return, which is great. I have no idea about charting, so can't offer any tips in that department.
Mollycat - Nice to meet you and thanks for popping in. I've just spotted your ticker - 12.1 kgs loss - that is fantastic!
Naenae - thankyou for your lovely words. I am starting to blubber...
Babymiracles - Rest,rest,rest! Glad the spotting has stopped and hope to see you soon.
To everyone else - hope all is well. I probably will pop back in later tonight or on the weekend as I am working this Friday.
AFM - Thanks to all for the continued support. It is great to be surrounded by people who do get it and aren't just nodding their head in sympathy or otherwise. Not much happening here, we haven't been dtd much so I would think af will be visiting shortly. It is 28 days on Saturday since last af. although my cycles are all over the shop. Plus we have my sil & her partner staying over on the weekend, so I don't think there will be much action until next month.
I have been guilty of lurking the past week, so sorry I have not popped in until now. I just would like to thank-you all for the wonderful support during our TTC journey.
I have made an appt with my OB but unfortunately I cannot get in until April 2nd which is five weeks away!! That will make me 10 weeks which is around the same time as our last loss (we lost our baby at 11 weeks but it died between 9-10 weeks - missed m/c).
I am doing really well and am trying not to worry about the past and have really been trying to love the little one inside me (although its hard as I think we all try and protect ourselves by not becoming attached in case something goes wrong again). It is certainly different this time, I am not thinking too far ahead but at the same time want this baby to know how loved and wanted it truly is. DH is really happy but trying to keep a lid on things!
The OB rang me today to discuss a few things and although he is completely booked until April advised me if I had any worries and I wanted to pop in for a quick scan for reassurance, he said just to ring and he will squeeze me in. Its nice to know I have that option. Although I have told DH that really even if we have an appointment any earlier it makes no difference to things - if something bad was to happen, it will happen anyway regardless of when we get to see Dr. I don't want to see another Dr anyhow as he has been wonderful.
I haven't had any symptoms yet, although, I am hungry all the time which is exactly how I was last time. I still hope to pop in from time to time if you girls don't mind, I have found this a very understanding place, one I don't know what I would have done without.
To HannahD & Abbey - GL with testing this month. Hope you guys can be belly buddies with me.
Coco,Eliza, Ubba Joselyn, Julia - - I am so sorry for your recent losses, you will find ladies here who truly understand what you are going through and much comfort.
Mollycat - good to hear from you
Babymiracles - Glad to hear that you are going OK now. Wishing you a H&H pg.
Mrzbaby - so sorry you have gone through such a hard time. Look after yourself.
Theresa - Have been following your progress - 11 weeks, how time flies. I hope it is the same for me!
Hi to Mel & Jen and all the other lovely ladies I have missed.
Hi everyone. and welcome to all the new ladies - so sorry you have to join us, but as the others have said you are really in the best place here! the care and support is amazing!
just a quick one again from me with no personals (moving is taking much of my time atm).
we got our test results back... all normal. so.... she just said hopefully all will be ok next time. I am in two minds.. if we knew what was wrong at least we could do something.. you know, have a reason for it.. but its also good to know that all the main things have been ruled out.
The clinic told me that when we do fall pregnant again to let them know and they will have me come in for an early scan (and it won't cost anything either so that will be great!).. so.. i guess we just have to and hope for the best.. and hope for a speedy bfp.
i hope everyone is well.. and I am thinking of you all... good luck to everyone in the nasty 2ww and i hope it goes quickly for you and reveals 2 beautiful lines.
Hi Jen,
wishing your son the best for today and you too!!!
AFM - I went back into hosp Wed Night and had a Hysterscopy and unfortunately another D&C after that....But I am hoping this is now the end of that and that AF hurrys up yes I a begging for it to only take 4/5 weeks to return so that gives me another 2/3 wks wait .....PLEASE HURRY UP AF PLEASE HURRY UP!
Then hubby and I are clomidding and BD like no tommorrow well every second day to be exact!!! sorry for TMI
My only concern is scaring I really hope I don't get any and that we don't have to go down that road of surgery to have that removed but heres positive thinking I am determined to have a EDD of Jan,Feb March, April ok if I must .... May as well next year!!! lol
chappas, plc, & Mel--Thanks so much girls! DS home safe and sound.... he's such a brave boy, not a single tear... tho I can't say the same for me! I made sure I waited 'til they took him back before I let it show! They took out his adenoids, as well as his tonsils, and his dr. said that his tonsils were all red and infected again already.... so if he didn't have his tonsils removed, he'd more than likely have strep throat again right now! Poor guy... but he's a super trooper, and is busily licking away on a popsicle as I'm posting! Thanks again for you thoughts!
Will still have to finish persies later... now I have to figure out what we're having for dinner!
Oh Jen, I'm so glad to hear DS's surgery went OK, what a brave boy he sounds like! I hope this is the end of all his throat problems too, he's had heaps of them hasn't he? I would feel the same as you if it were DD
mrzbaby - So sorry to hear you were back in hospy Hope everything is all OK now and sending you heaps of AF vibes then of course no AF vibes!
Polly - Hang in there, it is so hard in between ob visits and of course before your first one. 5 weeks is a long time (well it seems like it to me!) so I'd be taking your ob up on that offer of a quick scan if you need, do whatever you need to cope
everyone else, hope you are all having a nice day and have a lovely weekend!
So cute--congrats! 
Hope you have a great, stress-free, spot-free b-day!!! 
everything gets worked out soon, and you get the answers you're looking for! 
vibes your way. Fingers crossed that this is your month.
And I hope DS gets better soon.
to you.
I'm praying all is okay too. There is no shame in taking some extra reassurance.
for you and DH.
that our bodies should betray us so. Sorry if you have already told us this, but have you had an ultrasound to confirm that the miscarriage was complete? I do hope you get some answers soon.
to all the newbies. You've found a great place to come, the girls in here will give so much support, especially during the first few months when everything is so raw. I spent a lot of time in here during 2008, but have slightly moved on. I'm still praying for a miracle, but not actively TTC (no more charting, no more fertility meds). I know without this group, my days would have been so much harder. It's wonderful to have someone to talk with who knows just how you are feeling.
to all my old friends.
Not too bad hey? 
I made sure I waited 'til they took him back before I let it show! They took out his adenoids, as well as his tonsils, and his dr. said that his tonsils were all red and infected again already.... so if he didn't have his tonsils removed, he'd more than likely have strep throat again right now! Poor guy... but he's a super trooper, and is busily licking away on a popsicle as I'm posting! Thanks again for you thoughts!
Hope everything is all OK now and sending you heaps of AF vibes then of course no AF vibes!
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