Hi all,
Well today was going along well until i realised it was tuesday....( yes for those asking doesn't she even know what day it is...I didn't)
Have been thinking about this for about 3 weeks now.
Tomorrow marks my half way mark ( well 4 months but half way for me as I go 3weeks to 4 weeks early)
Finding tonight very hard... haven't cried yet but I think I am not that far away......
I have made the decision about not trying again.... Yes I know I am emotional but seriously i think the 3 D&C's have taken any determination of TCC out of me and I am thinking that I should be content with my 3 precious kids that I love and adore. In my heart I know I can't go through this again and usually if I want something so badly i can picture myself with it and it is just not happening... I can't see myself and DH with a baby, and I have to say that the fear of what I went through has been enough for me to have made me make that decision.
It is not just the D&C's making this decision but the fact that my cycle will take about 4 motnhs becuase of all the D&Cs to come back and up to a year to go back to normal... not that I am old but I had said to DH that if I wasn't preg by June this year that that would be the cut off and unfortunately the cut off has been made for us. Then there is the Clomid issue that we have and the very BIG increase of twins ( last bub we scored on our own I 'O'd all by myself for the first time in ...gee I don't know.) I have twins and triplets on my side of the family.
DH doesn't know and I don't plan on telling him for a few months so that when he finds out he won't blame it on my 'emotional hormones'.
Going to the Ob on Monday and going to ask him about the pill or injection or something similar as DH hates condoms and so do I..
Yes i will still pop in occassionally to see how you are all doing... hoping that none of you will be here when i do pop in though.
I do wish everyone hug amounts of
and wishing your TTC journeys are short.

Take care,


Em