Boble - Very confusing. Sometimes sperm can be very similar to EWCM so it may be that if you have BD recently? Maybe you should buy a OPT and check? Either that or just keep BD just in case!

mrzbaby - Oh, Em. So sorry you are feeling so down . You certainly have had more than your share of a rough time. None of my business but maybe you should talk to your DH and just tell him you would like to stop TTC for now and maybe make a decision together in a couple of months when you are feeling a little better (physically and emotionally)? It's a tough decision to come to and only one you and your DH can make. I really hope it all works out. Be sure to have a good cry if you need to (a big ugly cry as Jen would call it) as that often helps me feel better so hopefully it will help you as well