My DH's other best friend's wife just told me they are pregnant. She is 4 weeks. I know they've been trying for a year so I took the news waaaaaay better than the other friend but just now, I just hyperventilated after having a cry.
I can say I am happy for her genuinely, but I guess having to have the operation on thurs, and not being 27 weeks pregnant like I should be, is bringing out alot of my emotions about it all.
It's been 2 yrs this oct TTC. I know people have tried longer, Im not being insensitive to them, but to me, this is just pure agony and I am getting so depressed about it and I am sick to death of making a joke out of it and putting on a farce.
My sister just wrote a prayer for me which made me realise that she knows me too well when she spoke about me making light of things..
Dear Dad,(god)
As you know, my sister Mel and her husband Anthony have been trying for over 2 years to have a baby, you also know they have had one pregnancy that lasted 7 weeks. I thank you that we did get to see a heartbeat!! That in itself was a pure miracle.
Lord, I pray you will bless them with a successful pregnancy. Is not 2 years enough? I know it is your will for them to have a child, but as Mel and Ants little sister and best friend, I don't want them to hurt anymore. Especially Mel.
She feels like crying when she see's a pregnant woman, she looks away from young babies. She acts strong and just smiles it off, but she forgets how well I know her, I know she is hurting, and somehow it hurts me as well. I guess it's because someone I love so dearly somehow has to go through this, and I feel like there's nothing I can do.
God that's where you come in. Please, please bless them with a pregnancy, I pray it will be healthy and successful, and they can bring a new life into our world.
I want to see my sister genuinely happy. I love her so much and I want her heart healed, and another heart beating inside her.
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