Sandie - I'm sorry to hear about your loss. This is a difficult time, but I do hope that TTC is positive for you.
Zennie - I'm sorry for your loss. What an incredibly long & painful journey you've had! I can't believe you still had the intact sac in your cervix after your D&C! I don't know what the Ob was doing? I can't imagine what it must feel to spend 8 weeks going through a M/c and trying to keep a job down. It seems like a good idea to take some time off work and just try to work through the pain. If it helps, I felt like I wasn't functioning after my D&C either. I wondered whether my life would ever get on track, was anything worth the effort and would I ever be able to cope? I did cope, and most of us have. For me, I cried continuously, sometimes without any thoughts in my head, I cried at home, I cried at work, I cried at weddings, I cried in toilets at pubs and I cried at night. Then I found BB, and found that I wasn't the only one going through this pain, my life wasn't falling apart, it was just temporarily difficult. And for me, it did get easier after about 3-4 weeks. TTC in the 2nd cycle distracted me and I think that helped too. I hope it gets easier for you. Feel free to put down all your thoughts on BB and you might find it helpful.
Shoegal - Waiting that first cycle is frustrating isn't it? Hope it passes in a flash for you.
Rachael - Isn't that too early to get a reliable result? Are you going to test again later? that you get a better result then.
Positive - Great timing! Good luck when you test.
Sharon - This is going to sound weird, but I feel guilty about your neighbour too. I was annoyed with my friend's gf for ttc or being pg and not telling me at the time that you first posted about your neighbour. I would never wish a loss on anyone, but I wasn't exactly thinking kind thoughts at the time, so I feel a bit guilty about your neighbour too. I hope she is doing ok.
Claire - Great BT results! I'm very happy for you. You seem to write down my thoughts exactly. I'm too scared to get too excited about this pg, but then feel guilty, as though I'm not loving this baby as much as the last. DH is the same. He doesn't want to tell anyone cos he doesn't feel ready to get excited & probably won't be until we pass the hurdle of the first scan. And he'll feel like a bad father-to-be if he is less excited about it than our friends.

So I promised DH that I wouldn't tell anyone until our first scan. But then I had lunch with a friend on Sat, and it was so hard to not tell her what was going on, especially as she asked me directly when my cycle ended & when I was going to test. I'm so bad at lying that I think she knows I'm pg, and she knows I can't tell her yet, but she doesn't know why. I don't know if I'm explaining my thoughts very well.

I'll go to a medical centre on Friday, and I'll probably have to wait until 10wks for the first scan. Not sure how the NHS works. In the meanwhile, to keep ourselves busy and away from friends, we booked a train to Paris for next weekend. And I'm worried that my BBs aren't sore at all. Only symptom is needing to pee. Clairabel, have you had any symptoms?

Sorry for hanging about in here for a while. I'm trying to build the courage to head to the PAML thread. Just doesn't feel real yet and am afraid to jinx myself.