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dellydoo, sorry for your loss. I hope you feel confident that you can share in here the feelings you've been experiencing surrounding your loss and your TTC.
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Thanks so much smallfry - it's all about confidence isn't it - I got so scared that I would start reading/writing and I would lose all the ground I had covered and that I wouldn't be able to regain any control over my emotions. I think I had to really learn that I would never get over losing Charles and that I would have to learn to live with it before I could start. thanks again
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Delly - definitely a confidence thing! Sounds like you have come a long way which is greatRemember, you don't have to let go of Charles, he'll always be with you in your heart.
AFM - still no AF and no apparent symptoms of its arrival either. Have decided that I'm not going to test again unless AF has still not arrived by the weekend. I'm at peace with this decision which surprises me. Last night big discussion with DH about TTC which was good. As so many of you have said, your DH figures there's nothing he can do once he's deposited and with my DH, he tries not to get his hopes up since our last loss but feels concerned that he may be the problem and that his little wrigglers aren't up to task. I'm worried that I did in fact ovulate on CD26 this month even though I don't think that's accurate. IF it is I have at least another month ahead TTC.
How are our TWW girls going? Sunbeam, Anila, sorry to hear AF is headed. Coco how are you going? Who else is on TWW at the moment?
Cherished - will befor you at 1:30 today.
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seems I managed a double post... won't bore you with the same thing twice and will post a joke to make a giggle happen instead as I don't know how to remove the double post...
Little Susie goes home from school and tells her mum that the boys keep
asking her to do cartwheels because she's very good at them .
Mum said . "You should say "NO" - they only want to look at your knickers"
Susie said "I know they do, that's why I hide them in my bag"!!
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Just popping in before work.
Cherished-it's just dam awlful working around pregnant people with everything that is going on with all of us i just want to wish you luck with your u/s and hope you are ok.
Smallfry-LOL i like the joke.
dellydoo-sorry to hear about charles nothing anyone say's can help i know how you feel i lost my daughter at 19 weeks 5 day's and i dont know how i get out of bed every day and go on but i'm glad you are here in this thread with us and i hope our journeys to our BFP are short .
To our tww girls my fingers are crossed for you i am now in the tww even though i think we missed the egg you never no.
well i'm off to work i finnish at midnight and have to be at the RNS at 10 tomorrow for the geneticist appt i'm am absolutely terrified i will let you know my results tomorrow night WISH ME LUCK
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Good Afternoon everyone,
Cherished - My thoughts are with you today. I pray that you get some positive news.
to Janie & Dellydoo. I wish you both mountains of Babydust and hope you both get BFPs very soon.
Anila - Thank you for writing about collecting your baby from the toilet. I did the same thing but havent wanted to tell anyone as i thought people would think it was yucky. I couldnt just flush it away when i knew it was there. Thank you for being so honest.
Smallfryplus - Have you passed the day A/F was due?? Any more symptoms??
Sunbeam & Anila - Sorry to hear that you feel A/F is on her way. I like to think that every month that it doesnt happen just moves you closer to the month that it will.
AFM - FF says im 12 dpo. My bbt jumped from 36.8 to 37.2 this morning which is very high for me. Never been over 36.9 since i started charting. Not going to test until i miss A/F if i do. Only possible symptom is unfortunatley constipationand thats not very exciting.
Cherished, again wishing you all the best of luck for 1:30. I hope you can go home after and dont have to go back to work.
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oh dellydoo I feel very special for you to decide to post after reading mine... I am very sorry for your loss of little Charles James, and at 19 weeks I just can't imagine how painful that was and still is. You really are amongst friends here so please stay with us
Sunbeam I worked from 7-11:30 and I am having the day off now, and I will only be working for 3 hours tomorrow morning too... I have not cried today, I feel numb, it will hit me later or tomorrow or something... I already cried for 3 days straight when the bleeding started.... It's heaps heavier today... I will honestly be completely astounded if it is a positive scan, especially with what I saw yesterday and a temp of 36.7 today... We don't really have any hope but I guess we do need to know for sure and this will be closure
Anila I'm happy to see your beautiful face in this thread and thank you for your thoughts honey
Smallfryplus a joke, just what I needed
dh and I are off to the movies after the scan but will be home for a bit first so I'll post with the result.... I think I will be going out for dinner afterwards and having a bottle of red wine!
ADDITION after posting... Maddison you snuck in there while I was typing.... thanks lovely... to both you and Anila I am so happy you have told your story of looking at your bub... I obviously had a very close look at what I believe was the embryo... It's nothing to be ashamed about at allI needed answers straight way and needed to know what I was looking at
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hi dellydoo, im so very sorry for ur loss, the ladies here as you can see are all very wonderful and i have said it before they are a great comfort and support.
Sunbeam, i hope af isnt on the way, but if it is for both of us then we can do the tww again next month and get our bfps!
I know it doesnt sound like the most pleasent thing to do, but i just couldnt flush my baby away with out saying goodbye, i never got to hold my first angel baby, i was 11 weeks, and i was on a coach comming back from what should have been a relaxing time away, i had to pass my baby in the coach toilet, flush it away like it was trash then walk back to my seat like nothing had happened, i remember getting off the bus, and my mum looked at me and said u are so white is everything ok, i just broke down.Anila - Thank you for writing about collecting your baby from the toilet. I did the same thing but havent wanted to tell anyone as i thought people would think it was yucky. I couldnt just flush it away when i knew it was there. Thank you for being so honest.
This time i had to hold it, iykwim, i know it wasnt a fully formed baby, and hubby was standing next to me saying no, but i just had too. It help me deal with it a little better.
Cherished, i know i keep saying it, but i am thinking positive thoughts for u.
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Just quickly... heading out to the movies.
There was nothing there at the scan....
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Cherished im very sorry for you and your partner. I wish there was something more i could say.
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I am so very very sorry Cherished1. My thoughts and prayers and support are with you and your partner... Fly safely little one...
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oh cherished hun, i am so very sorry for your loss.
I know nothing that we say atm will take away your pain, but just know that we are all here for you when you are ready.
Once again, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your partner, and little Tiger5.
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Cherished-I am so very sorry to hear that. I hope the movie manages to take your mind off it for even a little while. My thoughts are with you and as Anila said we are all here for you. Prayers for your special angel
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Cherished - Darling I am so sorry - I am lighting a candle tonight for you
Anila - I completely understand - I consider myself blessed that I was able to hold my son and we are allowed do whatever we need to do to say goodbye.
Ferrals - I wept when I saw you lost your little girl so late - I know what you mean sometimes I look at the world and wonder how people are carrying on when I feel like this? Oh - GOOD LUCK!
Maddison - constipation - not exciting??? You must be doing it wrong
Smallfry - I needed that joke too! Thanks honey good on you for holding off!
All the best to us all
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Cherished: I posted in the other thread, but so sorry for your loss honey xx Hope you can zone out today and recover a little x
Just thought you should all know that MsObsess is in the house....she pushed her way in the door and made me do 2 POAS today...
Bugga..
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maddison - sorry, I missed your question somehow, yeah, past AF due date, that was Sunday morning (yeah, very specific, it always arrives first thing in the morning!). Symptoms are still pretty much the same, bloaty, heartburn no matter what or how little/much I eat, tender breasts, tired, irritable, sigh. No real nausea anymore and not really feeling that I am pg but confused as to why I'm so uncharacteristically late with AF. How many days til you miss AF? It is sounding good for you with temp jump in particular
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Hi Smallfryplus,
That is good that you are still having symptoms. Hopefully you will get that BFP in the next few days. I am 12dpo so a/f is expected on Friday. I want to wait til then to test but im feeling that i wont be able to wait that long now. If temp is still up tomorrow i might test in the morning. If it drops i wont bother.
Hoping one of us will get it this month!!!
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