Just a little note to my angel baby. I know there are others coming to their would be due dates. I just needed to get this off my chest.. Dont mind me not being posting much..Im chosing to lurk, it's getting a bit too much for me at the moment..[/COLOR]
love you all and thanks so much for your support too xxx
] Feeling flat, feeling lost
Feeling ill, the fever a frost
Feeling empty, feeling blue
In about 11 days time, we would have held you
Tried so hard to fight the urge
To scream and cry and openly mourn
The tree in the yard when it blooms I see
The gift from a god, that will never be
The pilow is soaked, yet again
Another month goes by and I see no end
I want to be done, I want to be free
Why angel why, didn't you chose to be with me
Feeling like a freak
Looking like a wreck
Seeing a woman weak
About nothing else I think
I know Im not alone
I know you've felt it too
I know what you've gone through but it doesnt comfort me
My feelings don't mirror you
The constant blame, and questioning
Was it ever me? Did you not love me?
The ache in my chest, the lump in my throat
Killing the time, writing a note
Looking for solace, and escaping these fears
I dread those few days where I know you would be here
I want you to know, angel dear
while I watch your tree grow you feel so near
I keep you close to my heart, even though we're worlds apart
My tears will be acid in about 11 days
I cannot deny it
The burning and the shame of still bearing the grief
The love I still feel, the anger and rage
I cannot deny, that in about 11 days I will be wishing...wishing for relief
To break these chains of the grief
Month after month I dread
turning the calendar and marking the day red
My biggest fears coming true and I know Im sick of hearing that It's early too.
To me you were real,
Your heart beating made it true
I clung for that moment, even though in my heart I knew.
I was already losing you...
Last edited by Inanna; October 8th, 2009 at 10:46 AM.
In about 11 days..
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