smilanatu... Ohhh hun... you are about to go through exactly what I just went through the last few weeks... only way I can put it is to say that it suck.... big time. Only suggestion I can give would be to be true to yourself... allow your feelings to just be what they are.... and do it just One Day At A Time..... its they only way to get through it. I dont normally refer people to my blogs but this time I will because I have a feeling it will help you.

Just deal with it in a way that is true to you..... cry... yell... scream... throw things... whatever.. one day at a time.