Hi ladies,

Well, im having a bit of a down day today. I feel a bit sad that I have been ttc for nearly 3 years with small success' that were taken away too quickly. What sparked this? I found some photos of my u/s with DS today, one from when he was 10wks and one at 20wks. They were also with photos of my pg belly at 7 months. I was sitting there on the bed looking at these photos and I just couldnt remember what it felt like to be pg, it seems like an eternity ago. I kept thinking....its just been too long. I just cant wait to see that little jelly bean bouncing around the u/s screen again or seeing its perfect little tiny little body wriggling around at 20wks. I know I have to be patient but it just feels like its a hopeless quest sometimes.

So now im sitting here on my bed, writing this with an avacado and yogurt face mask on, munching on rocky road chocolate and sipping on a glass on cab sav. Naughty I know....since im supposed to be looking after myself, especially since ov time is just around the corner.

Does anyone else just feel like its never going to happen? Like they are never going to see those two magical lines appear on the white stick again?

I do. Most of the time I manage to look on the bright side of things, but every now and again the light fades and im left in the shadows. I dont know if its the longing or dissapointment that hurts more.

Ok enough of this....more chocolate and wine should do the trick

Sorry for the crappy post,

Issy