Issy sweetheart, I'm so sorry you're feeling down. It's not easy, I know..and it must be difficult sometimes to keep a cheerful demeanour about TTC. You're such a strong, wonderful woman though. You're certainly not the only one to feel like it's not going to happen for you, I think a lot of us who have suffered losses have felt that way. It's compeltely normal to sometimes be a little taken by the negative thoughts that lurk in the back of your mind.

Also, don't beat yourself up over treating yourself to some chocolate and wine. A little bit certainly isn't going to hurt, and if it makes you feel a bit better, well then it's done some good So enjoy that wine and chocolate, let the face mask do it's thing, and treat yourself really well. As I said you're a strong, resliant, loving, warm, caring and beautiful person! You have every right to feel what you're feeling, and to take good care of yourself (including special treats!). It is going to happen for you, and when it does, you're going to make an absolutely fantastic mother!

Sending you all my warm, comforting, soothing thoughts. Sweet dreams.

Lisa xx