Acria - I'm not a huge subway fan, but I do enjoy their meatball subs. I'm guessing that even the meatballs would be a bit iffy when pregnant... And if you don't have a good vibe about this month, then imagine the lovely surprise you will get if it IS your cycle!

Issy - I am so sorry you are feeling so down. I don't know you TTC story, but from what you've written here it looks like you've had a pretty rough time I don't think there is anything wrong with you indulging in some moments of grief though. Eat as much chocolate as you want because it sounds like you deserve it. Tomorrow is a new day and you can try to get back your positive attitude, but I often feel much better after letting my emotions take over for a while.

LizJessie - Sorry about the BFN, but good luck for the next test. When I was pregnant my sense of smell was definitely hightened. I nearly passed out in a Vietnamese market!! Ewww.
PS. Your hpt's come from a post office?! I had no idea you could get them there!
OMG, I just continued reading and realised they came in the mail for you and that I am stupid, lol!

mollycat - Your cycle sounds crazy! Has it ever happened before? I hope your doctor is about to help you understand what's going on. I don't even know what advice I could offer you I hope things get a bit more normal for you soon though!

Jen - I wonder if there is a term used for staring at pregnant bellies when you have "pregnancy envy"? I suffer from it too

SaraJane - I'm so glad you have found this thread too. The girls have all been so lovely and I already feel so comfortable in here. I know things happened for you about the same time as me, so how are you going now? We are doing exactly the same as you at the moment; not actively trying, but not using contraceptives. I've still got hcg in my body though so my body is on hold...

Mel - Huge congratulations to you!!

I just want to let you all know how glad I am to have found this post and had the nerve to join in. You are all so supportive of one another and I find it extremely comforting. I wish I could give you all a big group hug

And finally an update on me. I've just come back from having my arm stabbed, so I should get the BT results back in a couple of days. I've got my fingers crossed that the hcg level is close to a big fat ZERO! I just want so badly to ovulate so that we can try for another precious little life.

And I was wanting your opinions on something. DH and I are having a star named for our little angel. We found a package that is decent priced and they send you out a little Russ teddy bear with a certificate which we are going to keep with all the stuff related to our angel (like the positive hpt's). The question I have is about the certificate. They ask for a "Registration of Occasion Date" and I'm not sure what to put. Would we put the day we found out that she has passed away, or the date of my last LMP, or the date of conception (eg. the date I ovulated), or maybe her EDD?