Dellydoo........Its rare to find a person who regardless of their own tradgedy they are there for others. I read your post and was amaized that someone who is going through what you are going through would have the strength to wish others well.

No words that I could put together would fix what you are going through, no words would ease the pain. Little Charles is up there with all of our little angels looking down at mummy and daddy....... he will be with you tomorrow, just as Cameron and Krystal were with me on the day that we pick up their urn. He will be with you everyday, just as Cameron and Krystal are with me everyday. The way I look at it they are going to owe me so many hugs and kisses when I finally go up above and I ve already told them I m holding them to it. In the mean time if you need to cry ... then cry... even if its one of those ugly ones.... you know.. with the snorting and stuff..... we ve all done them..... they are pretty much the password into this thread..... "Have you done an ugly cry?"...... "well actually yes... I have done many"..... "Ok... you can come in" . Dont underestimate the power of the ugly cry... it can actually help you to feel just a tiny bit better. If you dont want to cry but you feel like yelling and screaming... then do that.... scream as loud as you want.... tell the world your not happy...... Whatever your emotion.. be true to it.... DONT hide it and DONT underplay it... Be honest to what you are feeling.

When the fog lifts, you will know... and then you will know what to do next.

In the meantime... if you feel a little pressure on your shoulder tomorrow ... that will be all of us sitting on your shoulder.... being there for you