Firstly - so many thanks to all of you for your words of comfort, encouragement and support. Secondly - I feel we need a huge in here cos everyone is so down (and for good reasons) and we just need to pump some positivity through our minds/bodies/spirits!!! Special special hugs to those ladies particularly doing it rough.

That said, I'm afraid I'm now really not going to be able to share positivity as such but I really need to share this.

I've just come back from my OBGYN. As you may recall when I was having my crazy time last night that I wasn't sure about not TTC as the naturopath had suggested or to try anyway. After my OBGYN appt, I feel that all of my prior hysterics pale now cos I'm up against some other stuff. He basically said that 7 mths is considered a long while TTC especially when one will be 37 in May and not got a huge amount of time. I felt relieved at least that it was not all in my head and that I should be relaxing more - my concerns actually were well-founded. So I am booked in for a lap on Thursday morning to check what's going on, possibly endo, possibly something else, possible nothing at all and, if nothing, maybe it's unexplained infertility. I kind of didn't expect that I would need the lap and all that but, hey!, what makes me so special - heaps of people on here are dealing with those issues all the time. My DH doesn't get off scot free either - he has to get his boys checked out. I actually feel more sorry for him (he's so shy, poor guy) than I do me. Btw, the OBGYN doesn't believe in naturopathy, says acupuncture is ok-ish, and not to waste time by not TTC.
I have had a good cry - thought every thought from I'll be fine after the lap to "I don't want my son to be an only child" - now bring on Thursday. I can't get over how I can be so rooty-tooty fertile one minute and "all dried up" the next. Sigh!....

Trying to stay positive .....