well well well
Wow catch up time.....
Before I start check out this Avatar I ve got......Its amaizing how they do them. I just had to describe myself and wham..... there you go. I love the way that have my babies represented with the blue and pink heart ballons floating in heaven (up in the clouds)...... To who ever actually physcially designed the Avatar.... THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, now with that said... time for multi post.
Starrysky..... I completely understand about refusing to get your hopes up. I m "post o" in the normal cycle world and certainly made good on the jiggy jiggy BD when I was "o" but having said that it is my first cycle since loosing my babies and it could be absolutely nothing. But reality is, with the change in our habits and having had a rediculous amount of Endo removed, it could well and truly be a BFP. I cant do it to myself though, so I prefer.... to keep my sanity..... to just think of it as being in a holding pattern.... I will either get a visit from AF or I will get a huge smile on my face with a BFP, but until then... i m just hangin
AJC... thanks for the temping advice.... constant learner here...
Katiegirl.... Same again..... I m doing the same thing. I think we have all been through so much lately that we automatically try and protect our emotions by not getting our hopes up.
Tempus..... I really dont think i could go to the TWW either. The programe is called "taking charge of your fertility software" "based on the book by Toni Weschler. I found it on lullaby . com. web site. It makes it soooo easy for me... and i love it easy...LOL Now as for finding out tomorrow, I ll be logged on waiting to see how you go.
Nickster.....Thank You Thank You Thank You..... getting out of bed just for me.....also probably cause it was keeping you awake... but i m just going to believe it was just for me. I actually saw a thread like that after I left the post. So now I have this major issue........ If it turns out that AF doesnt visit and I get the BFP instead, how do i go to that thread. Not physically how do I get there but emotionally, how would I go there.... It brings up the whole what if i m/c again. What if i have another little angel baby. I sort of felt like I would want to be here with you all and just pretend I m on a 12 week wait.
Ohhh and by the way.... very profound for that late for you, but ......... soooooo true..... Its a bond that we all wish we didnt have but we are all glad that we do have it. (in the normal world that makes no sense at all)
No as for the trivial persuit...... Not here.... I am soooo not good at it. Seeing as though I am so much more of a direct person.... "here is a question for you DH... I will be upstairs waiting for you and you will be (a) bounding up the stairs behind me taking two stairs at a time (b) thinking about it for a while and then coming upstairs (c) coming upstairs in and hour to find me asleep or (d) sleeping on the couch "....... his answer better be (a) or he will deffinatly be (d) sleeping on the couch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As for my scrapbooks, well they arent easy. In our business I do designs everyday and the worst thing about a designer is that it has to be perfect. Each page is planned out and then done again and again and again. then and only when i look down at it and go yep.... that looks good, do i glue it all down. So sometimes I will get quite a few... one page after another... sometimes i find it hard to get one done each day.
Bettyboop..... Good luck tomorrow...... As with tempus.... i will be logged on to see how you go
Anthony s mum...... Hugs.... how is it all going????
ll80.... Strong..... hmmmm funny how I certainly do not see myself as strong. I see myself as someone who struggles every day, I look forward to the day where I can speak to people face to face without the feeling of desperatly needing to run and hide. I look forward to the day when my thoughts are clearer and when the sun comes out brighter. But I will tell you something.... all of you..... you all help me as you also help each other to be stronger .... to be able to face people and to be able to continue to move on.... one day at a time..... and for that.... I owe you all so much....
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