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The thing thats hard for me is that I told alot of my friends the day after I had got the positive test. The next day is when I m/c'ed *sighs* I feel like crap - mostly because I feel like I'm going to be sick
Hi everyone, so sorry, selfish post from me. I will def BBL for personals.
Please talk me out of POAS. On Monday (6DPO) I had cramping, I'm suspicious that it was implantation, the wait until Sunday (12DPO) to test is driving me mental.
I am thinking I am pregnant but have no real symptoms. I almost skipped to my car this morning because I had convinced myself that I was. I really don't want to get my hopes up and come crashing down.
shoegal~ we both have about 5 days until testing and I feel the same way! I have heard of people getting really really faint positives at 7-8 dpo and I just know I am prob. not one of those people and then if I got a BFN it would ruin my entire week. I am with ya but hold out so your not running around your house holding the stick up to every light in the house if you wait until AF is due and do that than fine but I know that I for one am going to wait. Well unless you buy a digital then I guess ignore me.
I have been reading through some past posts. The support here is wonderful. It makes me sad, though, to see so many little angel smileys and when I think about having 3 of my own, I want to cry. But I must say I am feeling much better these days. In part, I'm sure, because I found some 'ears' with you all who (unfortunely) understand what I'm going thru. I wish I'd found you after my 2nd m/c. As bad as I felt this time around, last time was much, much worse b/c I did not yet have my DD and didn't know if I ever would.
Treelo: Welcome! I am so sorry for your loss. I am new to BB as well and hope that you find it to be as supportive and helpful as I have.
Satya: Thank you so very much for your concern. Like I said, I think I have really turned the corner on my depression. Now I am more in a very-disappointed-and-bummed-that-I-have-to-start-again mood. The night I first wrote you all I went and bought a good dinner and some Hagen-Dazs ice cream and ate both. I am pretty much back to normal eating and drinking now. I know that you are right - if I'm going to TTC again, I have to treat myself right. I'm sorry to hear about your experience w/ your SIL. I don't think I would have made it through that visit at all - you are a strong soul.
Pash: Thanks for your kind words. Yes, I have spoken with my DH about how we both feel. He doesn't like to see me in this pain but also he says he's OK w/ one child - he's afraid he can't handle two. But he said the same thing about one before I had my DD and he is a fantastic father. I don't know - I guess we will see. As long as he is willing to keep TTC at least I can hold out some hope. He was getting used to the idea before I m/ced - even making plans for things like bunkbeds if it was another girl. The tech wasn't sure it was twins b/c the images on the sono were considerably different in appearance. She said sometimes some tissue gets
loose and it can look as if there are two. I guess I will find out at the analysis. Sorry you've had such a rough patch. I hope that you are feeling more positive now.
CrossingMyFingers: Oh, I am so sorry for the timing. I can imagine few worse places to start bleeding than a baby shower for a friend. I didn't tell anyone of my preg except my DH and my parents. I don't even think my DH has told his side of the family. Even so, I still feel a sense of shame and embarassment. I don't know why - logically in my head I know I didn't do anyting wrong. It's just how I feel.
Kbowman: Sorry to hear about your ex. I can't imagine how terrible that must have been for you. When I feel that way, I know I just need
to get myself through it. 'Tomorrow is another day' and all that. Fortunately I have a very supportive family and that's something worth hanging around for. Plus, fortunately, I am too much of a chicken to actually do anything to myself! I will be okay.
Sienna: Best wishes for a successful IVF!
LizJessie: I hope you feel better soon.
This weekend I'm going on holiday w/ my DH & DD to visit my DHs family. I am apprehensive about it b/c I'm afraid I will get sad and not be able to hide it well (I wanted to be able to tell them about the preg then ). Also I'll be seeing my brothers and their families (they each have 2 kids) and my SIL and her family - also 2 kids. I'm the only one with one. I was the last of all of them to get married (and I'm also the oldest) and now this. It just bums me out. Pardon the pity party all - I know I am very lucky to have what I have. Sometimes it just seems like others can have everything they want and not have to go thru so much to get it! Argh!
Lee - I'm also envious of Bun - I bet she's having a great time. You are so right on the food thing - last night I had a bacon/egg/cheese roll for my dinner and I felt instantly better.
LizJessie - I think most of us can't help but tell people the first time we are pregnant but when it all goes wrong we wish we hadn't. Any pregnancy after that tends to be hidden until we feel we are at a "safe" stage.
Trying - I think you need to be true to your name and try to be positive. TTC is full of waiting. Waiting for AF to finish, waiting to O, waiting for two weeks, waiting a few days to test, waiting a couple of minutes looking for a second line on the test (seems like an eternity) waiting to see if AF is going to arrive, waiting to see doctors, waiting for BT's, waiting for ultrasounds, waiting for results, waiting in waiting lists for treatment..... it's just lots of waiting. Throughout all that waiting we need to keep our spirits as high as possible, and that's not always easy. I find posting here helps me with my waiting, I have my bad days but most of my days are really good. Don't stress too much about no EWCM - you can still get pregnant without it. I very rarely see any these days (I think with me it's an age thing) but I still got pg earlier in the year.
Shoegal - The problem with testing early is that is you get a negative you will keep doing more and more until you get a positive or get your AF - huge waste of money. If you do get an early positive then you will still keep testing each day as you will be worried that the positive is going to disappear and stress about how dark (or faint) it is and wonder if it is a chemical pregnancy. I have finally got to the point where I can wait to see if my AF goes late before testing & it's a really good place to be. I do have urges to test when I get "symptoms" but I've had so many of those now for no reason I know they mean nothing. I just think, no I'm going to wait until I go late and that's that.
Sweetpetite - I'm glad to hear you are eating properly again & feeling a little better. Have a great holiday.
CD13 for me so waiting to O now. Got lots of bedding in over the last few days and hope to be able to keep it up until I O but we are both so tired. We also have miss 4 for the weekend from tonight and she tends to make us even more tired, and our opportunities to BD are less as she comes in to our bed early in the mornings most mornings.
*sighs* I feel like crap - mostly because I feel like I'm going to be sick
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