Pash - it must be frightening sitting about wondering what's going to happen. The thought of a hysterectomy will be doing your head in. Try not to think about that. It's very unlikely that it will happen, I think deep down you know that. I know you will not stop thinking about it, but just try to put it to the back of your mind. I'm having to do a lot of that right now. I can't think about how hard its going to be not seeing miss4 and & how I have probably lost my last chance at becoming a mum. I have to keep pushing it to the back of my mind or I will end up a basket case.

Leila - it doesn't sound like fertile cm to me. It should be pretty much clear around O time and/or stretchy as far as I know. I've been getting different cm this cycle and I'm wondering what's going on too. I'm just getting a heap of white cm when normally I only get that after Oing and I've been getting it since my AF finished. I haven't had any clear cm at all and that's normally all I get from AF until O. It doesn't matter of course for me as I'm not TTCing but I do still wonder what's going on.