Cheryl -- I wanted to write a note to express my support in regards to your mom. It's not an uncommon theme here, whether it be parents or other family members or friends, and lots of the girls here know that it's one that I've been struggling enormously with. Your story about grieving for your dad is especially familiar to me, as I could say the same about what happened after my sister died. Pressure to "get over it," bottle it up, a sense that it somehow isn't appropriate for a kid (in my case 10, in your case 15) to grieve openly, all leading to, as you say, all of it coming up with "compounded interest" many years later, like now when we're dealing with a new form of tragedy. I'm sure the generational gap is a big part of it, as you say; talking about miscarriage is still surrounded by a strange taboo today, so I'm sure many of our mothers are used to it being hushed up and are without emotional resources to handle a support role.

I whole-heartedly encourage you not to try to force yourself "back to normal" at an artificial pace as I think you know that it will provide at best a temporary relief only to be replaced by bigger problems later. Talking to the girls here can be part of the outlet that you need; you can be perfectly honest about how you feel here and not be told to just get over it!