Hi Everyone,

Some of you may have read my post that I had doubts about TTC again. Well In the last couple of weeks I have done a bit of 'soul searching' you may call it and I have decided I am ready.. Well Put it this way, as ready as I will ever be.. I don't think I will be anymore ready if I wait another 6 months or so anyway.. When I asked DP what he thought he said it is up to me... I reminded him he is part of it too, but he still said the decision is mine..

So, I took my last pill last week, AF came as it should have so now I am just waiting to finish and see what my cycle will do.. I don't expect to get a BFP anytime soon really as I took 3yrs to concieve the twins then I have had the depo shot which can apparently can take longer than the said 3 months to leave your system..

I have started to feel a little bit more normal and trying to look to the future. I started a new job today.. I guess I gave myself 6 months to fall apart.. I could easily stay in this big black hole of grief but I wont let myself! 6 months is enough...

Today is my babies 6 month birthday. It seems like yesterday that they were born and died! Well thats all from me, I have scanned some of the posts, but for tonight I just thought I would come and say hello to everyone that will be travelling this journey with me..