Trying to Conceive after Late Loss, Still Birth or Recurrent Miscarriage Feb/March 08

[jo76]

ok! update...

could'nt resist testing but got another fat neg! That was this morning in my morning tea break) I have started to very slightly slightly cramp this afternoon and when i went to the toilet just before and when i wiped i got the faintest lightest blood smear. So i don't know what my body is doing still...so maybe AF is on its way and this is all a major tease. i got really disappointed by the BFN today, so it was a ****ty start to it but will now def wait the next few days as i'm sure AF will be here by FRI unfortuneately.
Katie - I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU! I really hope this is it for you, please please please keep us posted and i will have to pay some extra visits to mum and dads and take over their computer to keep updated! Really hope it works out, good luck! I won't say anymore so i don't jinx it!!!! Sending you loads of and hugs and best wishes, whatever it takes to get that line darker!
Klee - i so hope one of us here gets on the other board soon. Would be a nice inspiring thing to happen and i do lurk over there so i am in and out anyway! thank-you for your wishes!
TM - Good luck with everything!
Barbara - At least you can mark one part of the reno off, good luck with the kitchen, just think of how great it will all be at the end. You are so brave to have tackled a reno in the first place! We wussed out! And i am glad you and DH are ok again!

my cramps are getting stronger even while i write this so its not looking good for me!
take care!
xxx
simba - so hoping one of us gets something good out of all these tests! I am starting to feel a little obsessed by finding out if AF is coming either way, how are you? I just want it here if its gonna come!!!!!!

[Simba]

so hoping that line gets darker for you Katie - cant wait for your next post

jo - sorry to hear that you think AF is on the way - its not over till its over though!!

TM - sorry that AF arrived - hope all goes well with the tests.

for me AF is still not here - no symptoms either way so just trying to keep busy and not test till the weekend ...agghh the waiting is killing me!!!

just need to vent a bit ....

DH work offered to pay for councelling after Lani died and he has always said that he would go with me - not that he feels he needs it but will support me and go with me. i keep asking and asking him to organise it and he always forgets to ring. today i asked him and he said he would ring when we are both home from work rather than him just ringing and saying "i'm ringing on behalf of my wife to organise councelling" anyway i got really p**** off because i see it as something for both of us. apparantley he's completely fine - i just dont get how less than 3 months ago he held his DD in his arms as she took her last breath and apparently now, in his own words, is "completely fine" to be honest i think he actually is fine and that is what probably annoys me even more!!! i dont feel like i'm in desperate need of help but i just figure that its been offered and it can only help us. anyway we will sort it out but just needed to get it out of my system!!! thanks

DH is in the kitchen as i type cooking my dinner so i guess i cant complain too much!!!!

[Katiegirl]

Hi all. Well I won't hold out any longer. I woke up at 5:30am and realised I was not going to get back to sleep, so I woke DH and told him that I was going to go and test. I did 2 tests - the brand I used yesterday (and on Tues when I got the negative) and a new one - Discover. Well.....the Discover came up straight away with a !!! The other one - Pregnosis came up with a slightly darker than yesterday but still faint positive. So I guess this is all pretty conclusive. I am happy, excited, stunned, shocked, nervous, scared....you name it! I don't think it has fully sunk in yet. My kinesiologist made me up a flower essence mix yesterday and she told me it will help with my fear (which is high). I am going to call the GP this morning and try make an appointment for tomorrow to get the BT to confirm. I also need to call my Ob to let him know. The appointment we have with him in 3 weeks will be at the 7 week mark so that will work well.

Thank you all for your positive vibes and support. I have really appreciated it. I just hope you can all join me soon as I would love to be sharing this journey with you all as well.

Jo - I agree that until you get AF you are still in with a chance. I did a test yesterday afternoon and it was so faint that it was inconclusive. Maybe wait a couple of days and do one first thing in the morning. If you are still early in your preg, some tests don't pick it up as well as others.

Simba - I think men find it hard to 'ask' for help and maybe that is how your DH views counselling. I definitely think you should take up his work's generous offer. Your DH might find that he enjoys or finds the sessions useful. I think it is a good idea to do one together and then maybe 1 just you - that way you can really concentrate on how you are feeling.

Barbara - good luck with the kitchen. I hope this next cycle brings good news.

TM - and I am hoping you have good news as well. You have been so strong throughout your trials of late.

Well that is it from me....I hope this has bought you all some hope for the future. I really want to allow myself to enjoy this pregnancy but I still feel apprehensive.

[Anthonysmom]

Katie - We need some little green men in here.
I am soooooo happy for you!!! Hopefully you will start a trend.

SImba - Sometimes I feel that men are a whole different species. I questioned DH about his feelings recently. He said he is atill sad, but he just shows it differently than me. Good luck.

Jo - Its not over until the fat lady (aka AF) sings. Hopefully Katie is opening the door for all of us.

TM - Good luck with the clomid challenge.

Well as for me, things are the same. Renos are almost done (I hope). I O in one week. For some reason I thought it was sooner. I really need this to be the month. But I am trying not to be too stressed. not good for conception. My diet is going well. Low carb on my OBs orders. I have lost 14 pounds of pre-pregnancy weight. Still got a lot to go though. Once again Yeah Katie!!

Barbara

[~StarBright~]

Yay Katie Girl!!! Good Stuff!!

When and if you want to come into the Pregnancy After loss thread you are welcome!! I was a bit hesitant until i got a bit further on as i didnt want to jinx myself... so i sort of hung out in both threads for a while. Its getting a bit quiet in there coz so many of the ladies have had their bubs!! So its up to you, buts its there if you want to check it out!

These things ('s) have a way of cathching on in these threads... i hope the good news continues for everyone else really soon!!

Barb... Well done on the weight loss!!!! Thats fantastic!!! Keep up the good work!!!

Simba.. Hi, i am not sure if we have ever "met" but reading your post i wanted to say, my DH found it much easier to cope then i did after loosing our baby girl at 35 weeks, he put alot of focus on helping me get better, and he seemed to find a place where he was able to move on and be "normal" and i was very much stuck.. i never actually took the dive to go to counsilling, i kept putting it off, though he kept "suggesting" it would be good for me, it just never happened. I'm sure its going to be needed one day though. And while DH kept saying he was "fine" i think he was just putting on such a brave face for me, if rubbed off on him in a way. He has had a few break down moments where he admits he never really had the chance to grieve coz he was soo busy making sure i was ok, and i made sure once i felt better that i let him let go a bit- though it was MANY months before i felt ok enough to do that. Maybe your dh is having the same kind of feelings, he is trying to be strong for you, and once he feels you can cope without him, dont be suprised if suddenly he starts to feel the sadness that you had. Does that make sense???? I hope so!!

Jo... I hope the nasty AF stays away, or comes and gets it over and done with to put your mind at ease. take care
xoxoxo

Bye for now!!
Katti

Good luck everyone!!

[Simba]

hi all,

just a quick post tonight - just wanted to congratulate you Katie on your BFP am so for you!!! would love to hear more about your kinesiologist - thinking maybe someone like that could be good to help me with my anxiety.

still no AF for me - starting to get a little hopeful- might test tomorrow morning. anyway off to bed - had a busy day - took my class to Collingwood Childrens Farm for an excursion - they had so much fun but am totaly exhausted from chasing after them all day!!

[Katiegirl]

Hi Everyone. Thank you so much for your lovely messages. It means a lot to me to know that you are all supporting me. I am looking forward to offering the same support back to you.

Simba - my kinesiologist and naturopath both work at Fertile Ground in East Melbourne. It is a natural therapy centre that specialises in women's health and fertility. I have found the kinesiology very interesting and useful - it is so hard to explain though as it is based on flower essences, energy, emotional blockages and chinese medicine! I really enjoy it though and I do believe it is helping me. The person I have is Amanda and she is wonderful, very caring and has been a great help.