Jo: thinking of you today. There's not much any of us can do but to be with you in spirit and send our love to Madison so she knows how much she is loved by all of us here on earth. I agree with Lan that men have there own way of grieving, doesn't really excuse the shower episode though. Take care of yourself today and know we're all thinking of you.

Dee: I'm so sorry to hear about little Chloe. Such a pretty name. You will find lots of comfort here. I got my period back 4 weeks to the day Charlie was delivered. I think anywhere from 4-8 weeks is normal though.

Tocarro: good on you looking for a new OB. I agree with Lan, your problems definitely sound hormonal. If you are falling PG you must be ovulating so chances are you have a really short luteal phase. You should definitely get hormones checked, I know low progesterone can cause really short luteal phase and is probably the most important hormone for pregnancy.

TM: how are things going with your testing. I hope you are getting some good results and have everything crossed for you.

Lan: you are definitely on your way to being that lady with a belly! As AF has arrived, you are already in your first week of pregnancy. Your next little bubba is already close to a week old! I'm sure Hamish is doing all he can to send you the perfect little brother or sister, that's why its taking a little longer than you hoped. Enjoy the practise!!

As for me. DH and I had the chat last night and decided to wait till next cycle. I'm a bit flat about it but know that its the best thing to do. I would never forgive myself if I had the choice to wait but didn't and then something awful happened with the pregnancy. I've worked out I will get my BFP on January 24 and will have a EDD of October 3. I'm putting it out there will all the positive vibes I can.