Firstly Im sorry to hear of your loss TM. Hang in there, the limbo doesnt last forever, but I know exactly what you mean.
Im not sure if Im really ready for joining here but .......
I have just had my 7th loss. 3 weeks ago tomorrow. I thought I was 17 weeks but the baby died a while before I had the ultrasound.
I still feel a bit in limbo but I thought I would poke my head in and say Hi and at least introduce myself cos who knows what the future holds. Im seeing my GP to see if she can refer me to someone, maybe the FS that Ive seen before. My OB wanted me to go to Westmead Foetal Medicine unit, but I dont know of any other options, Im going to research and see where I can go and who I can see. I would dearly love some suggestions if anyone could help. Im half way between Canberra and Sydney so I can easily get to either.
I have been doubting myself and feeling really depressed about having to move on with my life and forgetting about trying again. I feel so pressured by others opinions and thought maybe I was going a bit mad and just stupidly obsessed with having more kids. But I think it was just the usual greiving time and feeling down and I was reading into it too much. I actually feel really WELL. Like I have energy and have lost a bit of weight and more motivation for housework than I usually have. This has happened strangely after every miscarriage. About 2-3 weeks after I pick up all of a sudden and feel unusually good. Weird!!!
After reading some posts on here and the extensive info that Flowerchild has provided in the sticky thread about foetal death and miscarriage info, I feel reassured that Im not insane and just generally relaxed about the direction I want my life to go now. Its strange I know that I cant just be confident with what I want in life but I have always had low self esteem and Im very easily influenced and upset. You would think in knowing this that I could be more aware when its happening but I dont and it affects me. I feel stupid for it. Dh is very supportive and he doesnt think Im insane, he just wants me to be happy and would love more kids too. If I want to go through the stress of it all again then I have his support, and my Mum but thats it, no-one else. My good friends and all the inlaws think Im mad, and there really isnt anyone else that I feel close enough to to discuss it. I feel lonely without BB !!! At least there are others that have been through similar and want more kids on here. Anyhoo I will hang around here and keep up to date with everyone.
Last edited by stickybaby; December 11th, 2008 at 07:33 PM.
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