Rozzie, I can't believe your luck. I think you should definitely stay with the specialists if you feel more confident with them. I wouldn't worry too much about going public. Millions of people do it and as long as you get a healthy baby at the end of it, who cares. I think once you've experienced the kind of loss we all have, the niceties of birth with all the bells and whistles loses its appeal. I read a funny blog the other day from a lady who was going through pregnancy after still birth. Her midwife asked her if she had prepared a birth plan. She took out a piece of scrap paper from her handbag and wrote 'bring home live baby' and then handed it to the midwife. I laughed because it sums up exactly what's important, who cares about anything else as long as we get that end result.