AFM - well, I have decided to have the cerclage and go in Thurs 25th March. It was a really tough decision to make, as you all know from my tortured posts, but I am really comfortable with the decision I have made. It doesn't mean I am not just a wee bit anxious about the risks involved, but if things don't go to plan, I am am reasonably confident that I won't tie myself up in knots with self recriminations and guilt. I might for a little while, but not long term. I just really feel it is the right decision for me. Filled out the hospital admissions forms and spoke to the ob today.

It's odd though, despite feeling really comfortable with the decision, today I am feeling really sad and lonely....
oh hun good luck, im sure it will all go well!!! and you know what... you are doing everything you can to give u and ur gorgeous bub the best possible chance!
its very natural to be anxious but the risks, god i know when i go in for mine ill be exactly the same!!!

hun just take some time for urself, and do what u need to do today....

AFM:
well heres a bit of TMI for u all!!!!
PMSL!!! bet u were hoping to get a day off from all that!!!

so shan and i go for sexy time last night and well it was a bit uncomfy....
dont get me wrong it has been a bit uncomfy since i had gus, like me muscles are weak uncomf...y..... but last night was different, it was like he couldnt get it in coz my insides were soooo tight!!!! **** it was strange as!!! consdidering i have felt like the grand canyon for the last 8 weeks!!! LMAO!!!

so then i said to shan after man that was weird and he pulls out " well what do u expect ur knocked up" i got "WTF?!?! where did u get that from?" and he rekons im grumpy like i was last time, im tired more often now and i like chocloate now like i did with Gus, and he rekons my insides were like this when i was preg with Gus.....so now im a nit like. hmmmmm maybe he is right!!! i guess time will tell!!!

any ideas girls?