Blessed- I am going through a bit of that at the moment...the resentment to have to handle this, go through this, miss someone in my life. I hear you loud and clear hun and feel every word. i hope you feel lighter for saying it out loud.
Cmegles- I think this is normal hun. Remember you have a new normal now. If it starts to consume you more and more and there are more bad days then good, then it can be helpful to speak to someone. Truth is, i usually ride it out. I know if I am stuck there for too long to get help. Sometimes it is of more comfort to feel the pain.
It is so true that the sadness can sometimes help us feel closer to them...just like some days it is the happy moments that makes us feel them close by. Ride the waves hun and be ever so gentle with yourself.
We had my SIL and brother over last night...the one that is due first. We also had another couple too. I am quite sad and empty about some of their visit. How am I surrounded by what seems to be such selfishness sometimes. It is had for them I understand. Their life right now is excitement one minute tot he next...it is also the lead up to the birth of our daughter and no one considers that. I just feel forgotten, unconsidered and lousy right now. The whole night was talking abotu babies and labour and everything in between. It was torture and no one considered it might be. I spent half the night in the kitchen finding things to keep me busy to get breaks from the conversation. I want to be involved, but i want to be considered.
God i want to scream right now. I feel so blooyd lonely. No one cares. HOw is it I have such self absorbed family. If it is any other way, i wish they would let it be known.
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