Hey everyone,

I had a better day yesterday, not sure why, it is funny how our emotions change so quickly and I feel like I can't control them. When I am feeling down, that is it, nothing can bring me up. I spent most of Saturday night in Cooper's room talking to him. This made me feel better. My psych asked me last week if I imagine what Cooper says to me when I talk to him. I never had but Saturday night I was talking to him and imagining what he would be saying back to me. It was like we were having a conversation and it was a nice feeling.

Yesterday we started Cooper's gardens - moving some pots and things around to make room for the new garden. Hopefully by next Sunday it is all done and I will be able to sit there and talk to Coopie and write in my journal. I just feel like I need this garden. I hope it turns out perfectly, just how I picture it in my head.

Kirsty - I hope you enjoy your night away with DH and happy birthday to your DH. Good luck with your tests. I hope you get the results that you are looking for.

Spring - I have been thinking about you and wondering if you have your I hope you do!!!! I can totally understand how nervous you are. You should definitely NOT feel selfish if you get your - that is why we are all here. When you get it you deserve to be jumping up and down and screaming with excitement. I can understand if you don't get too excited now until it is confirmed as I can only imagine it will be nervous time. I would feel the same way. You won't be kicked out - if you do get a BPF i would love to know how you are going

Clare - good luck with you scan on Wednesday. I will be thinking of you. Let us know how you go.

Mel - thank you so much for sending me pictures of Nicholas - he is absolutely gorgeous!! You should be so proud and I am honoured to have seen him. Thank you.
I too am struggling with my weight. I have PCOS so it is hard to lose the weight. I am walking twice a day and eating healthy, so hopefully it comes off as I'm sure yours will too.

Take care everyone
Lynn