Hi Girls,

Clare - I am so happy for you that you collected Max's pictures. I didn't think I wanted Asha's pics, I thought it would be too hard, and it was, but now they are my greatest treasure, I just wish I had more. I am not sure what to say about the mix up with the sex, but I hope you are OK about it and I am glad it didn't come as a complete surprise to you. I too throughout my entire pregnancy had a gut feeling that Asha was not OK even when the docs said everything was fine. I am wishing you the best of luck tommorrow with your scan.

Mel - I am glad you are feeling a little better, it's such a rollercoaster this whole thing isn't it?

Lynn - I'm so happy that you got Coopers room all finished. And I don't think you should have to say goodbye to him yet, take your time and do it when you are ready. I only just picked up Asha's urn from my mums house on friday, I had been too scared to do it until then. I was dreading it, but now it is such a relief to have her home. We have decided that the right thing for us at the moment is to keep her here with us. Just take your time and make the decision when you are ready.

Spring - Vicious circle huh? You have a good scan which relieves you for a couple of hours and then you will freak out til the next one. I know that is exactly how i would be too. I am sure that tuesdays one will be just as successful, and try to get a pic to show us all next week.

Dream - Thanks for your word yesterday and also for the OB info, I am going to start looking into all that soon.

Well, don't have too much to say, I have been stuffing lolly bags all night for DS's birthday party on sunday. What started as a little gathering seems to have snow-balled into the social event of the year so I have been flatout. As I said, we only just bought Asha home last week, and as sad as it was, it really is good to have her here with us. I wish I did it earlier. Also, after lots of deliberation and research DP and I have decided to officially start TTC this month. My doctor at the hospital said to wait 6 months because I had a cesarean, but it seems too long, so I have talked to a friend of a friend who is a midwife, and she said that that is a standard line the hospital uses and is more to do with emotional healing than physical. My GP said I am good to go, I am healed well. Physically, all went perfectly with the op and I feel excellent, emotionally, I know I am ready, it will be hard now, but I doubt it will be much easier in 3 more months. And hey, if Britney Spears can have two C's in 12 months, so can I!! So I can join you all legit now. Yay!!