TTC after Recurrent Miscarriage/Stillbirth or Loss after 1st trimester ~ December 07

[Anthonysmom]

Katiegirl - I think we have the same friends. Most pople are very well intentioned and are doing the best they can. And truly I hope none of friends ever do understand what we are going through becasue I wuldn't wish this on my worst enemy. If you need her to back off a bit i am sure she will understned.

Ellie - I know what you mean about the holidays. I am the last person in my extended family to have kids. My cousin's 4 month old DD was in for her first xmas and everyone doted on her. hope you are doing better and good luck with the move.

As for me I went out with some old high school frinds yesterday. My best friends from high school are twin boys that I used to do everything with. i don't see them much now since one lives 12 hours away qand the other in London. It was nice. Its like being time warped back to a simpler time. When I was alone with one of them (the one I didn't see for thanksgiving and wasn't able to tell personally about my loss) he just put his arm around me and told me how sorry he was for my loss and hugged me. Then we went on with out evening. It was so nice to feel normal even for a short period of time.

barbara

[tempus moriendi]

Hey everybody, just wanted to write and send cyber hugs to everybody hurting at this time of year.

Doesn't it feel like we're in a bind? On the one hand we really do want to welcome the new little members of our extended families, but on the other hand it's hard not to think "why not MY little one?" I always feel very petty when I start thinking like this, but sometimes I can't help it. I just keep my mouth shut.

Anthonysmom: congrats on AF!

[jo76]

hi everyone!
am going to butt in on this thread too. I am seeing my Ob tomorrow and i think i gave myself a headache and stomach ache today just from the worry and nervousness of it all. I have a million and one questions and will also find out the confirmed results from my blood tests to see if the "community virus" that i can't remember what the name was, was what harmed Jack. Still it won't give me anymore closure just yet so i almost don't want to know. Want to find out about my bleeding also to see if i gat my AF or if it was just a re-start of bleeding from the labour. (add it up and I had bleed for just over a month!)I spoke to a friend on sat night and she was surprised that i had'nt even had sex yet and i was like i just stopped bleeding!!! Thank-god for that tho as i could'nt stand another day of it. Although tonight i seem to have the lightest lightest spotting and i feel like buttingmy head into a wall, it surely can't start again! Plus as much as i want to get my Af to TTC i have too many questions re: the next preg to even try right now if i could. Give me another month i think at least...wish me luck, i can't even think about going to bed right now. Thank-god i have a specialist Ob who i know well, i may get through this yet!