howdy everyone.
klee- knitting might be better than obsessing, and i've always wanted to be able to make something with my hands. last time i tried, though, the pot holder i made was unsafe at any speed. lol. i've been bad about meditating since Yeti died, but i think it would help me to calm down a bit. i too picked up some running -- my legs feel like lead every time i go.
Jo- good news on the glucose test. the ulcer doesn't sound good -such a lot of stress and no good way to let it go.
Mel- i always feel guilty doing something just for me--but you are right that it could help not go on this damn hope/despair cycle. i had a friend tell me to just relax and i'd get pregnant, i just felt so much guilt because it seemed like my fault that i couldn't get pregnant because i couldn't relax. she didn't mean it that way at all, but i'm so willing to accept guilt. you don't sound crazy at all to me for trying different ways of help. this is such a challenge, and who really knows what will work?! do what ever feels right for you!