Hi girls,

My angels girls are Sophie and Imogen - it still makes me teary eyed to say the names we choice for them. I miss them so much and can't stop thinking about what could have been if i'd realised sooner that i was in labour.. i keep re-playing in my mind what happened that day and leading up to it.. i feel as though i have nothing to look forward to at the moment as everything we were planing was a round the girls.. i hate not being able to look up things on the web to buy for the girls.. i still have the few cloths that my dad had brought for them still boxed up waiting for them to use.. i hurts so much that they won't ever be here.. but i'm sure that pain will pass. Hopefully when were blessed with a happy 9 months. Sorry to sound so sad but my DH has just gone back to work and i'm home alone thinking about them every minute.. All i want is to have that lovely warm feeling back inside me, knowing that were going to have a wonderful child, the excitment and planing for thier arrival..
Guessing that most of you feel the same and it is a help to know you guys are there to support others even whilst going through your own pain. i feel luckly in one way (i know this sounds bad) i really don't know how i would cope if they were still born at term, i hurt of them being 21 weeks and to young to surivive after birth is bad enough, any later would have completely shattered me - don't know how most of you do it.
Well sorry to be so low today - i'm going now to make a nice warm cuppa tea to cheer me up,
Laura xx