Hi everyone,

Chelle - Welcome to our little gang, hopefully you too will join us all when we upgrade to the pregnancy thread.

Lynn - Wow, what a day you have had. I think you and DH made a good decision to keep Cooper home with you for a little while. I have Asha with us too, we are not sure if that is where she will stay or if we will take her to the garden at the cemetary, but home is where we need her right now. I am happy that you have made that decision. It must have been tough to go on your own, but I am sure that your little angel is so proud of you. The meeting is on at 10:30, I am pretty sure, but I am catching up with my friend tomorrow and I will double check, and it is at the Sids and Kids office at Rozelle hospital.

Mel - Sorry, but I decided to keep the Nathan cd. Well, I am coming up for ovulation, so I thought I needed the soft n sultry sound of his voice to help us get in the mood. Lol, maybe I can burn you a copy. I am sorry you had a $hitty day at work. I can't believe that you had to sit through that on your first day. Well, it will be your turn soon, so don't let it get you down.

Spring - I know, I always think back to the things I was thinking in the last month or so before Asha died. I knew something was different. I never had those feelings with DS, and I hope to god I never have those feelings again. DP and I have talked a few times about the circimstances, and I guess we are just trying to make ourselves feel a little better, but we have decided that the way she left us was probably the best way in the whole horrible situation. It sounds weird, but as I was telling you yesterday, three days later I would have been having my next ultrasound, and they would have picked up the fluid in her body, and that her lungs were too little and that she was never going to make it, so we would have had to make the decision to either induce me, and watch her struggle to breathe on her own and suffer, or just wait for her to go in utero. I can't imagine being able to cope in either situation, so I am grateful that it happened how it did, iykwim. It actually makes me so mad that i should say that I am 'grateful' but I just mean that it could have been worse. I have to tell myself that. And maybe as you said, they waited for us to be ready, well as ready as you could ever be. I just miss her so much.

Nat - I hope you and you family are doing ok after today

to everyone and to Spring!