Mel - I used to play "The Rose" on the guitar when I was learning too (shows my age really )

I just wanted to let you know that some of the worst times for me after Caitlyn was born was the wait to be pregnant again. It took 10 months (6 of those on clomid) and we fell pregnant last cycle before taking a break and seeking IVF. I felt like my body had failed to be a safe haven for my baby to grow and then to top it off, failed to get pregnant again to give me another chance to be a good mummy. I felt repeatedly like I had failed (Caitlyn, myself, DH, our families) and while I KNOW this isn't true, it didn't make me feel any better during out TTC again journey.

I guess I just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone and what you are feeling is completely normal. I spent the weekend (Caitlyn's 2nd EDD anniversary and the day before our progress scan) in tears on and off with her ashes on my lap. I even took her to bed with us that night (bedside table - not IN the bed. Co-sleeping is not safe with ceramic ) You are still in the early grieving process so make the most of every opportunity to allow yourself memories, tears and reflection. It's good for the soul

A big hug and lots of baby dust for everyone.