Ellie,

Sorry to hear that you had a rough day...but I can totally relate to the "when enough is enough" part...had a bit depressing time myself this past Sunday dwelling on "how we could be celeberating Father's Day too"...

After trying for 4 years now (natually and been through 1 stim IVF cycle), DH and I had a good talk and decided that we will stop trying if this hasn't happened by the end of 2008. We also feel that during the past 4 years, life has been on hold and everything seems to be planned around TTC...if life is meant to be without kids, we'd better be used to the idea and start seeing positive side of that lifestyle too...ie. lots of overseas trips and get used to be accused 'filthy rich' by your counterpart.

I feel lighter after making the decision although with a bit sadness but I know I will be ok and I know there are lots of miracles could happen within this period of time...

Well, this might work out differently for you Ellie as everyone is different. I know I am type of person who needs a plan regardless (although knowing too well of 'things never goes to plan"), maybe this time Mophy's law will work in favour of mines...let's hope that's the case...

I hope whichever way you choose to deal with it, it will evolve a positive result and who knows this cycle you are about to go through may well be the ONE that completes your dream!