Ellie

I am so sorry to hear of the pain you have been through. I know how hard it is to decide when you have had enough of getting your heartbroken, of being scared to go to the toilet for fear of misscarriage or spotting. We are lucky enough to have conceived a beautiful little boy who we adore more than anything, he is 2 and 1/2 years old and we have been trying to have another baby for 18 months now, and in that time I have had a miscarriage at 5 weeks and 2 pregnancies with Anencephaly in August 06 and Feb 07, these were both lost at 12 weeks. We are now thinking about trying again and I have just found out that I am actually pregnant (only 5 weeks) but today started bleeding again.... I am so sick of this and really tired of trying to have another baby. I want another child more than anything, but I don't think I can keep going through this. I am thinking now that we should just be greatful for what we have and just stop trying. It is such a hard decision to make and I don't think you can ever fully shut the door, but it is very difficult to keep going too and having your heart broken into a million pieces each time.

I wish you all the luck in the world and I will be praying for you lots.

Take care
Love Deb
xx