Evening all,

** ME MAD POST **

Sorry to rant on here, but have no where else to do it without other judgeing me.

Wyatt is six weeks old this week and DH has not bother to help look after him at all. Which has been hard. Not only that I get NO emotional support from him. He was great in last few weeks of prg, really caring to the point where he would help me up of lounge, or give me a push if got stuck in bed.

He went away last week for work which I was fine with but he seems to be gotten the the baby blues now. He hardly talks to me, will palm Wyatt off if I give him to hold while I either fix dinner or other children. He just sits his big lazy ass on lounge and watches TV. I can understand he may have had a rough day at work, but god he doesn't even give me a thought...

Last night he wanted to fill in his spray record book which he has too for his contract. Anyway he leaves it until the day before harvesting to fill out a whole seasons of spraying. Then got mad 'cos Wyatt was crying he is my main thing at the moment not some dam record book. I was ment to send in the copy of the record book today and I forgot, running after 3 kids had too look after another one, and I also had to run a work mate of his out to the back of wop wop which to 2hrs their and back. If I didn't have to do that maybe I would have remember to post off dam copy. But his arms are not broken, he uses the excurse that he is in a big truck. Well park away and WALK back the exercise would hurt him.

Other thing, haven't had sex since what see likes forever. It's not a huge thing for me, but when I have a man that doesn't really express how he feels to me about me. Then it a major thing for me to feel close to him. I feel we are drifting further and further apart in the last few weeks. I didn't even get flower after Wyatts birth. However I go out and buy him new motorbike gear to go riding in, NO thanks for that dear. No kiss on cheek. I am so over it right now. I really don't know what to do. Worst part is I have no where to go if I want to leave.

Anyway I had better get off, pull self together and dish up dinner for kids.

Thanks for listening/reading

Cheers
Sarah