Hey! I thought I'd pop back in. I'm here most days.. I'll explain more after the personals.


Kirst - oh dear with your husband. What ended up happening? Rebecca is right - it's not fair. My husband isn't too bad. However, he can't hear Jensen when he's asleep, and Jensens crying/screaming. Andrew comes home, its dinner time and Andrew holds him and cuddles him (sometimes to sleep) while I eat and then he's in bed, not long followed by us. Then in the morning, Andrew cuddles him for about 10 mins before he heads off to work. So he doesn't get a lot of time with him. So I have to deal with everything.

Shell - Smiles are iminent! Jensen start smiling just before he turned 1mth, but they were small that I wasn't sure. They could have been mistaken for wind, but looked different, iykwim. But his official smiled was 1mth to the day! Only it wasn't me that he smiled at. Its hard to stay mad at them when they smile at you!


Rebecca - Xavier is sleeping thru the day too? Everyone seems to be fairing better with the sleeping. Must feel good to get some time to yourself when he sleeps during the day, and woo hoo a sleep-in. I can only imagine what thats like! We seem to be cluster feeding too, but there's problems... explain shortly.

Sara - I hadn't heard of the mirena either - i thought it was like the thing that they put in your arm... but I was wrong! I've had the suggestions of having a shower with him, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to relinquish his babyness yet by showering him! So far, I've had a bath with him, but he hated that too. His nanna (my mil) bathed him tonight. He cried but then he seemed to like it! What on earth am I doing wrong? Jensen also seems to hate being on his belly, unless of course he's really tired and needs to sleep and then he'll go to sleep on his tummy. He hates to be on his back too. I can't understand - hates being on his back and his tummy, and really really likes to be cuddled up to me like I'm a tree and he's a koala. Not looking forward to having AF back.

Neuri - I was under the impression that your loss could last up to 6wks. My loss has stopped (at around 2 wks) but I seem to have a slight discharge that I can only assume is some sort of loss, but it doesnt look like blood. Go figure. Could quite possibly be my stitches weeping or healing or something. I totally understand the colic thing. It's a nightmare. I will have to try the head massage with him.

Well. Where do I start? There's a lot I'm going to say here... Ok, feeding problems. I think there might be something wrong with my milk. My bb's don't get full like what I hear you girls get. Mine are 18E and look terrible. They don't look or feel like theres any milk in there, and when Jensen tries to feed, he doesn't seem (to me) to be getting anything. The mw in hospital said that when they're feeding properly, you can't hear anything coz they're latched on tight - but you can hear them swallowing. Occasionally, I can hear that. Also, he latches on fully, sometimes it seems like just the nipple, and you can hear drink drink squeek from where it sounds like hes sucking in air as well. He sometimes be hungry, so I try to feed him and he SCREAMS - just wont take that side. So, we try the other side, and he SCREAMS. Just wont feed. Other times he latches and sucks and then makes crying noises while he sucks and then pulls off and screams. Today I had to feed him while he was sitting up. After every day feed he brings up a bit as well. When he does feed during the day with no problems, its only for a few mins. He doesn't feed much during the day and during the day he doesn't really sleep either. He'll have maybe in total an hour of sleep - but like a koala in a tree on me. Move him and thats all over. He can have about 10mins of quiet time where he stares at nothing. If he's not sleeping like that, he's crying. I totally admire those of you with 2 (or more) kids who can keep a house. With Jensen like this, I can barely get anything done. In the morning after Andrew leaves, he naps for long enough for me to do the dishes, maybe put a load of washing on. I end up having to leave him cry to hang out washing. Today I put him into the kapoochi and hang the washing out with him - where he went to sleep. He hates being naked - including changing his nappy. So every nappy change is a challenge. Changing his clothes if his nappy doesn't fit properly (we're using babylove infant 4-8kg and they seem a bit big) and makes a mess of them is even worse. Bath is the absolute rockbottom. The nappies (babylove) give him a bad nappy rash and he gets the little gel things from the nappy on him (who knows why - I change him often enough). I thought about not using that brand any more, but I've got whats left of that packet and 2 more packs of 48 left . When I'm finished them and the 3x 48 packs of huggies infant I have, we're going to see how we go with cloth. I try and get stuff done during the day, buy really dont go far. Mainly I try and talk to my sister on msn. I've been trying to fold and sort his clothes and organise his room for about a weeek now and I don't get anywhere. After reading all of the above, We have no problems at night. He feeds fantastically. Sleeps well. At night it's a dream and I can't wait til he sleeps thru the night on a regular basis so I can have a break. If I wasn't so exhausted at night and desperate for intelligent adult face to face conversation, I could finish what I started.

I'm sorry if that sounded like a rant, but I wasn't trying to make it sound like that. I really just needed to get it off my chest, coz to be honest (and don't tell my sister or Andrew), I don't think Im coping.

Changing the subject before I log off -do any of you use Facebook? Its like a community (bit like myspace). You have a list of friends and only your friends can view your photo album and yeah. Just curious. Coz if you did we can see each others pictures as well as hearing about our kiddies, we can see them too.

Better go, Andrew is pacing the floor to go home. I'll be back tomorrow !