Tonight we have just done 8.45 til 2.45, perhaps I should consider going to bed before 11.30 hmm
Jemima may have a little cold caught from Daddy... not too bad though..... must suck though trying to feed with a stuffy nose poor little dear.
Benji has gotten a vcr free from a mate and has made all the TVs and DVDs work for me, I cant imagine what I used to do before we got the TV, it was 2 and a half years since we had a TV when we got one in December when I couldnt move off the couch and when it was cricket season, now I cant stop watching it and we dont even have foxtel.... I've been watching Bewitched the old series on DVD and someone lent us Macgyver too! I am bidding on Seinfield on Ebay so that should enterntain me while I have a 3am in breastfeeding season.
I have been having a couple of personal issues lately with the whole motherhood thing.... I didnt realise what the loss of control would do to me, I didnt realise I didnt realise that I have all the time in the world now... not maternity leave, not holidays this is my life now, not everything has to get done straight away, there is no rush and I should have a nap every so often and most importantly I should play with Jemima when she is awake..... I think I blamed everyone in my life last week for what I dont know, I was awful.... I joke with the neighbours that they would have heard more crying from me than from my one month old..... NOT COOL
was a little worried about post natal depression, but I think I would say more Post natal frustration....???
This week is my BIG test (so now me being me have put a heap of pressure on myself) this is the first week alone, last week Mum came everyday (and got abused by me every morning for some stupid reason) (I have apologised big time but still hating myself as I know you cant unsay things even if you dont mean them) and the 2 weeks before that Benji was home.... this week it is all me!! I plan to try and get into some kind of routine, starting with a walk with jem every morning... weather or not I am up to taking one, two or three of the dogs with me i dont know... as i have had help i dont really know how well i have healed inside..... dont want to screw with it now.....
Quick question that doesnt need to be answered but I'm wondering those who have also had c-section how soon did you guys DTD?? Hubby has been counting down to 6 weeks but we had a go at 4 weeks.... didnt hurt too bad.... perhaps that was a problem the last month too plain old sexual frustration?? Was weird doing it without having baby inside, instead baby was in bassinette in room, maybe we should have wheeled her out hehehe.
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