Hi all, looks like I am pretty lucky with Flynn - he is eating and sleeping well, settling in to a predictable 4-hour routine and putting on weight like a trooper.
My problem is my personality and my relationship with DH - we had "issues" before but now that Flynn is here they are understandably magnified. They centre around the sort of person I am - I am a conflict avoider, deliberately act in a passive-aggressive manner, don't stand up for myself half the time and the other half go on the attack, and keep being snappy and *****y. I can't blame pg or BF on this - I was like this before. I really hate who I am at the moment and want to change, especially because I don't want Flynn to grow up with a mother like I had, but it is so hard to make wholesale renovations to your character!! Other problem is because we have been dealing with this for so long, DH is really over it and just wants be to change.
I know this sounds like I am a browbeaten housewife but while there is fault on DH's side (and he and I both acknowledge it) this is really something that I have to change. Like Dr Phil says - you are responsible for your own behaviour and perception of the world.
I know this sounds all glum - it's not really, but I just needed to vent. I am so ****ed off with myself at the moment

IK I really hope BF improves for you - good on you for working so hard! If you keep up the good work I promise you it will become the best part about caring for your newie. It is the one time I am totally sure Flynn is content and secure...

Bellasmum you are SOOO one of us - anyways in a few months time, a week or so will make no difference between our bubs - please stick around :-)

Nickers don't let the weight thing get you down - if Nixon is growing somewhat surely that is enough? I so empathise with the projectile vomit thing - our nephew did that and it is so hard to watch them be upset.

Bath, you seem to be coping so well with two little ones - what is the age gap b/w Niall and Wade? DH and I are thinking of trying for number 2 in december so could be working with an 18 month age gap

better go - will try and log on again soon, but getting in to the library between feeds to use the net can be a bit of a challenge

ciao bellas