Oh Nic! Sorry i missed your post... you're not a bad mum!!! It sounds like those weigh-ins are starting to worry you... please don't let them!!! Nixon will grow out of being so "chucky". After I feed Niall I wait until putting him down which helps a bit. I'm sure there would be lots of other mums in here with that problem... I can't be of much help... but please don't be so hard on yourself! Repeat after me: "These are the absolute HARDEST days" C'mon, you can do it...
Thanks, BathshebaI've been a bit absent, but definitely keeping tabs on our Junies. I will repeat that mantra in my head all day today. i have been so disheartened - this BF'ing thing is my biggest challenge so far, probably ever in my whole life, second only to writing my Honours thesis!
I had an appt with a maternal nurse today and I might not have to go to a clinic now, but we'll see how I go. She thinks the vasospasm is related to the attachment. She did help.
DP spent his first night EVER on the couch, I was so upset but had to concentrate on feeding Oscar last night because he was so unsettled (most likely because I was!). Feeding=hurting, so I have to get out of that frame of mind, concentrate on my technique and RELAX. I just want to feed my little monster!! And he's so beautiful, I hate not being able to satisfy him because of not being able to keep him on for long due to the discomfort. But we'll get there. I just don't want to wish away this time when he's so little, waiting for when he's bigger and feeding is easier. I've used up quite a few tears. DP is frustrated and seems to think I should be able to pull my housekeeping weight already...but I just CAN'T! This BF'ing business is wiping me out, and on top of that I'm trying to get the attachment right.
SO, I definitely hear the Junies who are having issues with night feeding etc - unfortunately, I do take some solace that none of us are alone in our experiences.
In good news, my mum was very supportive about this when she called last night - could she be ...nah, I won't say it, just in case...
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