Thanks so much Bath - your kind words always make me feel better. I'm sure we could talk for hours about it. It will be nice to talk to someone who understands it, most of my friends have such wonderful mothers its hard for them to relate. They sound very similiar with regards to being selfish and its one thing I have made sure I'm not (along with all her other bad traits that I have tried to avoid!). I keep thinking its only one day I have to be near her and then that's it. I always knew this day would come and was hoping she would still be living overseas and wouldn't be able to afford to return - wishful thinking! I would love to catch up over the school holidays. I am hoping to get a few days off so will let you know.