sheree - what youa re feeling atm is totally normal and justified, its not bad to feel that way at all. Only this arvo when i last posted i was thinking about Tania's bub and thinking how we all feel she will have a girl. I thought of you and thought, gosh Sheree must feel a bit hard done by not getting her longed for girl this time. I wanted a girl too and thought I'd be devastated if i had a boy, well i had a boy and i have never felt bad about it, took me a while to get my head around the idea and i do occasionally wonder what life would have been like if he were a girl, but honestly i could never imagine our family with a girl in it now. Of course you are thrilled to have a healthy baby and you will be thrilled when Riley is born, but i can totally understand your jealous feelings about not getting a girl this time. Just remind yourself that your 2 little boys are going to have SO much fun and mischeif together growing up so close, as brothers they are going to have very special times that a brother and sister might not have. you are not selfish for having these feelings either. you will cope with your 2 spwcial boys, i have no doubt they will run you ragged at times, but the joy they will bring will far outweigh the stress.