Blanche - hope you get thru Easter ok, the first one without your Grandpa. I hope the funeral is a beautiful celebration of his life. That's beautiful to name your new little person after your grandpa - relaly lovely.

Christy - worms heh, never a dull moment. Have you organised your travel plans?

Kimbaz - i have a mental image of you hopping up and down (continually wanting to pee!).

VIcky - last night, bilby most unusually slept from 5.30pm - 8.30pm (weird), then 2am - 8am. For her, that's heaps!!

no nap today, heaps of unsettled whingeing and crying.

checked out potential child care centre. They just assumed we used disposables adn told me to bring in 7 sposies per day and told me they didn't allow MCN cos it was "unhygenic". I quoted the Children's Services Act at them, that says that all childcare centres must accomodate all types of nappies and boy did they back down in a hurry!!!!! But it made me annoyed that they assumed everyone uses sposies. They also gave me black looks when i said i wanted to come in after four hours in care, to feed bilby. Four hours is the longest she can go without a breastfeed. They obviously found breastfeeding distasteful. No one said "for a 16 month old!!!" but the looks, the dropped jaws, they didn't need to.

(This is after telling me the centre's philosophy is to mirror what the child's normal day is like - well her normal day is to be breastfed!).

argh!!!! it did not feel like a child friendly place to me. I felt like they wanted bilby to be a robot who drank formula - every baby in the 14 months - 2yrs room i visited, they ALL were drinking FF from bottles. So much for encouraging the individual child!!!

i will put her there for a minumum period, and use the free time to find a more suitable place.

i was shown around by the CCC director who said "do you have any questions" and when i did, she kept saying, :"you can ask that on the first day" (of the people who do the care of the babies". E,g i asked the centre's policy on settling. Wanting to find out if they did controlled crying.

So they put you in a position of signing up when you really don't know how the place operates, So on the first day, when i supposedly get to ask all my questions to the staff looking after the babies, if their answers don't suit our needs, i then have to forfeit a deposit.

crazy system, are all CCC places like this? The director was very spoken but cold, i got the impression the majority of people using the centre are much better off than we are (financially). I sat there feedign bilby in their lobby, cos when i went to fill out paperwork, bilby let me know how hungry she was, and the looks i was given, as if i was bringing down the reputation of the centre by breastfeeding in their lobby!!!

i just couldn't believe i was in a supposedly child friendly environment!