CONGRATS AJP!!!!

Vicky - how amazing to hold a brand newie! awwwww!

Kim - not nice to be ignored on threads, i've been there too. Such a contrast with this thread isn't it?

that's great about your week with just you and Craig - woot!

Christy - so you're nursing a nearly dying dh - you poor thing!

Taralee - here, have a box of tissues, the nice aloe vera ones so you won't get a scratchy nose! glad you got to see SATC movie, cool.

AJP - i can see three green lights next to your name

DH and i had a long talk the other night - it just ****s me that I've the one that gets to the point and says "we are not getting on, you're shutting me out, i really want to know, what is going on with you". Like, he can observe we are in a bad way too, but doesn't occur to him, to say "let's talk, we can't go on like this".

I am on a waiting list to go into a residential hosp setting for PND, have been told that should be happening this week.

Been stressed out of my brain about the coming school holidays in July, what to do about SD - now bilby is in the bed, we don't even have a bed for SD anymore. and it was cramped before anyway, every visit is so stressful. So this time, i worked out how much it would be for me and bilby to stay in a nearby caravan park for a week ($70 a night, $350 i don't have) - and realised, it would either be the same, or less, for dh and SD to drive to interstate rellies and stay with them for a week. So that's what they will do.

Rellies will no doubt be flummoxed why bilby and i wont be there - they have never met bilby and i would like them to, but i cannot cope with travelling and looking after both SD and bilby. too much car time, SD is very demanding, and when we get there, the rellies are like strangers to me, and not very welcoming anyway. Staying in a cramped caravan with the four of us in the middle of winter, besides not having the money to do it, i know it would be revolting space wise too.

Right now, i feel dh and SD going interstate each school hols, is the only thing to do. Her airfares to get to us are already a huge expense for us - i feel so trapped about the whole situation. We really need to move to a bigger place but that is not possible.

Moving out just me and bilby, THEN dh would have the space to have SD come each school holidays. But i would be moving out with no whitegoods, no furniture, no computer. Just our clothes. See my dilemna - whichever way i look at it, can't afford to do it. We can't move to a bigger place as a family, i can't afford to set up a 2nd home as a single mum. I don't expect any answers, been thru all this, just having a whinge. i'll stop now. promise.