hi guys, i'm just in here tinight to VENT about me mum

WE dont have the closest relationship, i'm the black black sheep in my family so things are often tense between me and the rest of my family. i just cant win, i try to make things better between us i.e drop up there to see them with sophie but when i always seen to be wrong about everything it really gets me down .
i and DH often question why i even bother, i guess at the end of the day i only have one family, but....... i think a big problem with my parents is they cant express their emotion at all, i always say how beautiful, gorgeous and cute sophie is, deliberatly in front of her to MAKE her agree and say it too, but she just can bring herself to say it. my sisters dog gets talked about more than my daughter!!! . i have fantastic IL's who tell us they love us, in which i reciprecate, but my own parents cant even say it to me, i dont remember a single time in my life when my mum said she loved me. .
i pretty much had to hang up on her tonight, could continue arguing with her over some trivial matter, though i'm meeting her tomorrow morning, something i regret oganising now.
i know that she regrets our bad relationship and has left it a little too late to repair, but she's not helping acting like this to get things on track, not that i think it will ever get any better. have gotten used to things the way they are
i feel i an finally getting my PND sorted and times like this just want to make me cry. i have a fantastic husband and a beautiful daughter i couldnt ask for anything more, just hurts thats all, a lot, always will,
sorry to vent and not do personals, maybe tomorrow.