i'm glad you guys said you'll let them go sometimes. i get wracked with guilt if i let him cry. sometimes i have to let him cry off the hiccups (only takes 5 minutes usually - when the boob won't work). with his arsenic times we've let him go a couple of times.

i hate letting him go because i feel so guilty that i should be able to carry him and rock him and keep him happy. the crying doesn't necessarily work. sometimes he'll crash out straight away other ties he'll cry like he's being stabbed.

today motherhood is a massive trial and i am feeling jipped. it feels like it will be like this forever... *voice trails off*

tell me it changes....