Viv - I hear ya! I keep asking myself why I have done this, and when will the good times start that all my friends with kids tell me about. I know it will get better in a few weeks and better still in a few months but so focussed on the hear and now.

Tiff - My mum was only up for a week and I was so upset when she went back to Melbourne as she was moral support and helped around the house . What I am really scared of is when DH goes back to work in 4 weeks time. I can't tell you how frightened I am about being on my own all day. So by then I hope that I will have a routine set up and he is a little more settled. I hope..........

DH and I went for another long walk today. Got to where we were going and started to walk back and L started to scream his head off. We found a bus stop and changed him but stopped short of pulling my boob out.

Oh well 7pm nears. He's just been fed and is out for the count. Don't know long it will last........