Hey girls!

thanks for all your kind words...it was really lovely to read and *know* that you girls are understanding me ITMS thanks xx

MD: DH said the same thing, he told me that i should instead thank little J for giving me the chance to reflect and build from that experience, and when he said that it started to make alot of sense...
as for pool floaty things...no idea LOL! i had the arm things as a kid and really disliked them as i found the loss of control too overwhelming ITMS. and i'm not sure that i will get floaty things for L...watch this space...hoping to get her into classes and we'll see what they need us to have lol.

Arte: ahh but see A has W to watch and learn from! so of course she will be itching to join in the fun! sorry that W is feeling a bit lost, give the kidlets some time and soon they will be finding common ground (this happened to good friends of mine, their son is incredible with his mind and conceptual understandings, and it wasnt until he was 4 that he was able to find some connection with the other kids, in a way it all found a happy balance in that he had to learn to play differently - ie, less rules etc - and it totally calmed him down and he was able to just really enjoy their company - where previously it would just make him frustrated ITMS. and now that the other kids are getting bigger they are alot more interested in his games and ideas...)

MP: wow you have been on a busy spree! i guess it is nice to have the house back to yourselves for awhile! i cannot believe that little J is 4 months!

AFM: well i am feeling ALOT better! thanks again guys, it was lovely to read the posts today...
just took the morning off (DH suprised me this morning and told me to have a sleep in and relax and he took L to kindy etc...so i got out of bed at 10am!!! ...i dont remember the last time i did that LOL!). then a girlfriend from uni called and said to come and see a movie at a cinema near uni that has $6 monday sessions...so went to brunettis for a coffee and a movie (saw the 'imaginarium of dr parnassus...AMAZING!).
we had a belated impromptu 'party' for leila too. the famous 'perfect' cake base came out of the freezer and i finally iced it up and put the farm animals on it...it was beautiful! so so yum! and really easy to ice...no crumbs to ruin the party. i will download them tonight and put it on FB...