Edward Thomas, born sleeping 24.04.08

[widdly]

Welcome to Belly Belly Rozzie, and huge hugs to you. You have come to the right place, i have no doubt that you will recieve an abundance of love and support in here. You are an incredible woman to be so strong and to have such a great outlook on life. It really touched me that you said you and your DH and concentrating on living your lives to the fullest for Edward as he hasn't had the chance to do, that is such a beautiful thing. i have no doubt that Edward is THE most beautiful baby boy. Im sure it wont be too long and Edward will be a big brother looking down on his precious siblings.

Please know that now you have come here you are never alone, you can just switch on the computer and we are all here for you anytime.

[LuluHB]

Oh Rozzie. My heart breaks for you. Your beautiful little boy Edward was lucky to be given such a mummy as you and I'm sure he's looking down on you now with a heart full of love.

The immediate road ahead for you and your DH is so hard and unfortunately there is nothing any of us can do or say to make it easier for you. It takes time, strength and love for each other to get through but you WILL get through. My first three pregnancies ended in loss - one ectopic and two miscarriages. With each your heart breaks and you lose a little of yourself and I certainly felt by the third that I just couldn't continue, that I didn't feel I could deal with any more heartache. Thankfully with the support of my DH we did and today we celebrated the first birthday of our beautiful daughter. My pregnancy with her was "boringly normal" as my OB put it but I was a complete mess the whole way through. There are the horrible milestones to pass of previous losses, that "just get to the end of the 1st trimester and I'll be ok", only to find a new fear takes over. As my daughter was born I heard my OB say that the cord was around her neck. It was what I had been expecting - I never thought I would be given the gift of a child. It was not until my beautiful crying girl was placed on my chest that I believed.

My DD was born on the 1st anniversary of my last miscarriage and I like to think that she is the same little soul who had tried unsuccessfully to reach us in the past. Any day now her little sister should arrive. Pregnancy with her has been easier - I think knowing you CAN do this helps get you through.

For now, be kind on yourself and lean on your loved ones for support. The ladies on BB are amazing and talking to women who know just what you're going through is such a help. You have been robbed in the worst possible way of the joys that pregnancy can bring, but you have not been robbed of never having a brother or sister for Edward. Don't give up hope.

[tiggerlinda]

So sorry to hear your story be kind and look after you and DH I am sure Edward is a special little boy

[Spring Angel]

Dear Rozzie

My heart is breaking for you. I lost my first son Harrison at 36weeks 2 days and at the time I did not want to go on. Life felt pointless, like I had lost all purpose. How could life be so unfair and cruel. Your pain must still be so raw at the moment, allow yourself time to grieve. Yell, shout, cry, sob be angry, confused, sad basically do anything that you need to.

When I first lost Harry I felt so alone, like there was no one else in the world that could understand this pain or know what it feels like but I then found the wonderful women on BB and realised that I was not alone and that it is possible to suvive this pain and even be happy again.

I went on to fall pregnant with my earth baby Oliver and gave birth to him almost 8 months ago. So it is possible to go on and one day you will hold your earth baby.

For now, take care of yourself, mourn your precious little Edward Thomas and know that he will always be your baby boy.

With support and understanding
Lv Spring.

[Tobily]

Rozzie I am so, so sorry. I don't have the words to make you feel better (could there be any?), I just wanted to give you a
Rest in peace beautiful baby Edward.

[Snoopea]

Rozzie,

I'm sorry for your loss, you've got me crying, I can feel the love you have for your son and I know you will be fine.
It's not easy to get on with life after a loss, especially one of this magnitude. To be reminded by all those pregnant bellies will cause heartbreak every time, we're all here for you and you'll find the bellybelly website warm and welcoming! (I'm a newbie too around 2.5 months now).
Kelly

[feeb]

Huge hugs I am so sorry and sad to read your story.

BB is a great place for support I hope you find what you are looking for here.


xoxoxox

[~ Mylitta ~]

Rozzie, I am so terribly sorry to read about the loss of your beautiful son, Edward. Your post has had me in tears! It's been 1 week and 1 day since I learnt at 8 weeks and 1 day that my baby was no longer with us. It was devastating so I can't even imagine how hard it must be to have your son pass away at 22 weeks You sound like you are being incredibly strong, but I know how your (and your DH's) heart must be breaking.

I think that your mapel tree is an absolutely beautiful idea. It will give you something to look upon while you cherish the memories of the special times (albeit not long enough by far) you both had with Edward, such as seeing him wave at you during scans. My DH and I don't own our own home yet, so we've decided against a tree for our baby, but instead I am having a star named in honour of our silent angel.

Take as much time as you need for yourself during this sad time, and remember that anything you are feeling is the right thing to feel. There are no wrong ways to cope with grief, so if it makes you feel better to laugh or cry or scream, then do it.

My thoughts are with you, your DH, and Edward.